Monday, December 02, 2013
I've been stressing out for such a long time about maintaining my Lifetime Membership at Weight Watchers...so much that back in February, I had officially increased my maintenance weight. The weight I have selected now (155) is still 5 pounds less than the top of the acceptable range--for Lifetime eligibility-except when a doctor determines that you can maintain outside of that window. Right now, I've never fallen out of that window for weigh in, so I've never had to pay for my meetings- Great..right? Sure, but I don't stay for the meetings--what have I gotten out of them lately? Not much...there aren't many maintainers there, and for the most part--the meeting is for those who are in the losing phase, and the Lifetime members in attendance are depended upon to support and encourage those who seemingly have so far to go. I have no problems with that--we all need encouragement, and as an added bonus, I get great fulfillment from providing others with inspiration and support.
But the fact remains that lately, I am spending more time worrying about making that weigh in and less time focusing on just being happy and accepting of myself. Do I think it's ok to let myself off the hook with maintaining my goals--of course not, but I've got everything I need right here at Spark as far as support and feedback goes--more than I get from my WW meetings when I go, and lets face it--I haven't been excited about going for a really long time--I am, however, always psyched to interact with my Spark pals :)
I feel like the stress I'm feeling to weigh in within that 2 pounds over is making it that much more difficult for me to maintain, since, let's face it--when we are stressed, we don't always make the best choices, and for many of us--that means poor food choices, and I am definitely not immune from the impact of stress and comfort eating.
I originally began using WW because I loved the convenience of the tracking of points, but I've been really liking and consistently using the food tracker here over the last month or so, and with all the improvements in ease of tracking that Spark has made since I became a member back in 2008 (and of course my own upgrade from dial up internet), I've really come to like using the food tracker here. Combine that with the auto-activity tracking that I get with my Spark Tracker, and I'm feeling like there is no reason why I need to do double duty with two programs.
For the moment, I will still plan to participate as group leader for the WW from Home Spark Team. That team is very small and quiet, and it's a skill I want to maintain as well, so that if I decide I want to return to that method of tracking for whatever reason (maybe I'll decide I want to take a break from the internet--like over the summer when I'm off work).
I feel good, and I like how I look. Some of my clothes are starting to feel small, but not too many--mostly the ones that I was really reaching to fit into anyway (ya know...single digit sizes really seduced me :) Tens are fine!! I was never smaller than a 12 as a teenager, and I was fine then.
Love you guys and all the support you so freely hand out!