Monday, December 02, 2013
It seems like once I hit my stride something happens and it throws me into a downward spiral. I was losing weight really well and watching my food intake. I was working out and drinking my water doing everything I was supposed to be doing. Then all of a sudden we found ourselves without food. I was not working as many hours and my hubby was also in a work rut. I started to get a little depressed and I was hoping for some kind of miracle. We tried going to the food bank to get food but they would only give us a small grocery bag of canned food. It was something but not enough. Not complaining for the free food but for a family of four you'd think they would give you more. It was so bad John and I were eating beans and rice for dinner every night and some nights I was going without to feed the boys and John.
I didn't gain any weight but I wasn't losing either. Then all of a sudden in one night I gained 10 lbs. I have no idea where it came from but it didn't help my mood. John was getting fed up with work and so was I. The management position they were promising him was given to someone who he trained two months before and I lost a chance at a full time 40 hour position to a co-worker who came back after being gone for a month and a half. She also happened to be my boss's best friend from high school and they have been working there together for 10 years. John got so fed up he started putting in applications elsewhere but continued at work until he heard something. In the mean time my car stopped starting and we were down to using one car, again! John had to take me to work every day and pick me up on his way to work. When I had to drive home and take care of the boys until I had to pick him up at 1am. I HATE RETALE!
One morning after dropping me off at work John got a call from one of the companies he applied for, for an interview and they offered him the job right then and there.. To our luck it was a concrete/oilfield company and they offered him full time 40 hours and twice the pay he was making at Wal-Mart. We were so excited he wrote out his letter of resignation and sent it in that day. A couple days passed and I was getting more and more upset about my job. I was getting my hours cut so badly that I was barely working. When I did work it was odd shifts, basically the shifts no one else wanted. Mostly closing shifts but also opening shifts right after a closing shift. I was having mental breakdowns at work when clients would yell at me for things I didn't have the authority to do or tell them. I was not motivated to help people like I was supposed to. Any animal that came in I just wanted to smack away from me. My husband saw how depressed I was at this place and told me if I wanted to quit to do it. I have plenty of reasons to terminate my employment with them so why not. That night he wrote me out the letter of resignation and I turned it in the next day. I was so relieved to go that day considering I was supposed to work the whole day by myself. Luckily my boss let me go home early. I was so much happier when I left it was like a giant weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I am still looking for work but in the field I went to school for and for doctors I want to work for working with human beings and not animals.
The end of our lease with this apartment complex is coming up soon and we are looking for a house this time. We are so excited and can't wait to be in a home of our own.