Monday, December 02, 2013
I've not been around here much recently. I had another pregnancy scare (I was having the same sort of nausea that I have had in my two pregnancies) and sorta freaked out. As it turns out, this ended up being much like my last cycle-post-miscarriage, and I'm not pregnant . . . but thinking you are right after deciding to wait at least 6 months before THINKing about trying again and before you've fully dealt with the grief and fear, etc., is terrifying.
So my weight jumped again, back to 192 (where I've been holding steady for about 2 weeks now). I am, at least, proud that it didn't continue climbing.
I'll admit to taking my scale back down and weighing more often than once a month . . . hoping to get back to that idea once I've settled into a bit more of a routine. Dec. 13 was my due date for my first pregnancy, and as it approaches, I'm finding myself in a huge mix of emotions.
These next 6 months are supposed to be about me—doing fun things, trying to be healthier, meeting some goals that I have set for myself (more on that later).
I'm trying not to get down about the way I've kept yo-yoing, trying to remind myself that it is only 5 pounds and that this has been an unusual year for me. Five pounds is 2-3 weeks of work (assuming all is fat). This last round also came with Thanksgiving, where we had two different holiday meals during the course of the week—and leftovers.
Today we are meeting up with some friends who are in town for the holiday. While lunch is involved (last I heard, a simple lunch of sandwiches), the plan is then to wander one of the great museums here, so I'll get some activity in.
I have a plan to make dinner this evening AND do some meal planning for the rest of the week.
Some of the upcoming fun: hubby and I purchased tickets to a festival this summer. It is one of the things on my 40-before-40 list (my "bucket list" of sorts for the next 9 years). It is one of the sorts of festivals that includes camping on the grounds, which means that I'm looking at camping gear. I really enjoy camping, but we have yet to do it as a couple. Since one of my other 40-before-40 items is traveling to all of the states I haven't been to, I imagine we'll have quite a bit of camping in our future. Love that owning the gear will help facilitate all sorts of trips—perhaps including impromptu weekend getaways. Hopefully that will include taking up things like hiking together, too!
I tried to put a lot of experiential things on my Christmas list this year—including gift certificates for a segway tour of my city (I've always thought they look ridiculously fun, but would NEVER spend the money to actually do it). And yes, that is also on my 40-before-40 list.
I'm also putting in a proposal this week to present a paper/workshop at a conference in February—something I've never done before. I should note that sending the proposal is something I've never done before. I have led workshops for more localized conferences . . . I may very well be turned down, but I'm proud of myself for actually deciding that I DO have something worthy of being shared.
Here's to living life, eh.