Friday, November 29, 2013
Some people might think I am "wasting" too much time participating in "silly" threads and looking at blogs that include mostly comics and cute animal pictures. I appreciate the inspirational blogs I read, too; but the funny ones are what help me most in dealing with my life right now. There are lots of studies that show that laughter is good medicine . . . for physical problems and for the anxiety that many of us face.
When I go to sleep at night, one of the last things I usually think about is whether or not my husband will still be alive in the morning. On my good nights, I am able to leave the question in God's hands and go to sleep. On my not-so-good nights, I find it difficult or impossible to go to sleep. And sometimes I am awake because Charles is moaning from the pain in his feet and legs . . . or because he is coughing . . . or because he is having dreams about Vietnam and thrashing around in his sleep . . . or because he is in the office or the living room because HE cannot sleep.
When I wake up in the morning, I check to see that Charles is still breathing. I look at his legs to see if they are swollen. If he looks feverish, I check his temp to make sure his fever has not sky-rocketed again. I remember the day I found him on the floor in the office in a diabetic coma. When he does his morning check of all his vitals, I quiz him about whether he has gained fluid weight over-night. If he has gained a lot, then we have another run to the ER. Every time I wonder if it is the last time.
I have some medical issues of my own, but they are nothing compared with what Charles goes through every day. Still, they do add to my exhaustion.
So . . . I want to thank all my Spark friends who participate in my favorite "silly" threads. I want to thank my Spark friends who post comics, jokes, and pictures that keep me laughing. Other than prayer, it is the single most valuable support I get here. Yes, it is even more valuable than the support for forming better eating habits and being more consistent about exercise. It gives me relief from the stress of life and keeps me smiling.
So, my dear, "silly" Spark Friends . . . Thank You!!!!!