I thought about writing this blog on Monday night, but I wanted to wait until I had the time to sit down and really think about what I was saying before I did. You see, Monday, I planned on skipping the gym because I couldn't find my tennis shoes or gym bag. But when JD texted me that afternoon asking me if I was working out, and I told him that, he searched our house, found my shoes and bag, packed me work out clothes and met me at the gym after work. And even writing that now it makes me emotional. So I wanted to write this letter to J.D. but also share it with you, because I think it's important that you all know what an amazing support system I have.
Thank you for loving me at my largest.
By loving me at my largest, you loved me when I didn't love myself. I know that my insecurities and my lack of self-esteem led to problems. I was so jealous, and so scared that you would fall out of love with me, due to the way I looked. I was so frightened that eventually, you would realize you were out of my league and just leave. But you never did. You stayed with me through many unsuccessful diets.
You always tried to help in any way that you could whether that was gently asking if I really wanted that extra helping, or inviting me to work out with you, you tried very hard to help me,long before I was willing to accept the help. But you never gave up on me, even when I gave up on myself. And for that I can't thank you enough
When I finally found SparkPeople, and got into a groove, you couldn't help but tell me how proud you were. You were constantly commenting on my weight loss and mentioning how light I was every time you picked me up.
And you weren't just picking me up literally, though you do enjoy that.
You pick me up from my lowest of lows. When I've had a bad day eating, or a day when I don't want to go to the gym, you pick me up and make me better. You make me a better person. You've been along for 6 and a half years of this roller coaster and I feel so lucky to have found you so early in life.
You've shared in so many of my triumphs. You proposed the weekend of my half-marathon, and yesterday, you ran your first 5-mile Turkey Trot with me and your mom and sisters.
On a day where we reflect on what we're thankful for, I'm thankful for so much. I'm thankful for my wonderful family. I'm thankful for SparkPeople and finally gaining control of my life and becoming a healthier happier person.
And I am so incredibly happy to have you in my life J.D.
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And I'm so glad I get to spend the rest of my life with you.
Thank you for your love and support, J.D. You're stuck with me forever.