Although I'm still trying to get myself to stick to a good routine, I try to weigh in each week either on Fridays or Sundays. My most recent weigh-in was on Sunday, 11/24. I had done pretty well that week and lost just about 2 lbs, bringing my weight down to an even 160. At the time, even though I was pretty darn pleased with my accomplishment, I didn't really realize the significance of that number - 160. When I joined SparkPeople in late July, I weighed in at about 185 or so. A pretty high number for someone of my age and height, but for me, 185 was an all-time low. Since I was 8 years old I'd been a bit on the heavy side, and my weight peaked when I was about 16 or so. I was so blind to my size I don't even know how many pounds I was lugging around, but looking back on the (very) few pictures I have of myself from that time, I could've easily weight 220+.
My goal upon joining SP was to lose a total of 50 lbs within a year. In the 4 months I've been tracking my nutrition and fitness, I've lost 25 lbs. It took until just today for it to finally sink in: I'm already halfway to my goal weight!
I can't believe I didn't realize this on Sunday, when I weighed in. Talk about a delayed reaction!
So I'd have to say I'm doing pretty well in my journey. I am by no means a model of perfection though - I still catch myself sneaking a piece of cheese from the fridge just to much on, or grabbing that extra little sliver of pastry I hadn't planned on eating. I must admit, it feels like these little slipups are happening more frequently of late. But nothing will ruin my resolve. Since I spent a lifetime eating poorly, it only makes sense that all my habits and ways of thinking will take more than a little while to change. So I keep working :D
For the first time in my life, since I was just a child, I am no longer classified as obese. I'll always have the stretch marks on my arms and abdomen to remind me of how little I took care of myself in the past, which I find more than a little disheartening. But still, losing this weight, making these changes is an AMAZING feeling. I still hope to be able to share it with my family; it seems as my weight goes down, theirs goes up. This is probably just my perception, of course. But I still see chips, muffins, and ice cream far too often around the house, despite the fact that they say they want to make changes. I wish I could give my resolve to them. But, if there's one thing I've learned throughout all of this, it's that no matter how much someone else may want something for you, if you yourself don't deep down want it, you won't get it.
I for one do deep down want it - I want to be healthy and happy and I want to feel good in my own body. And I'm going to get it.