Monday, November 25, 2013
So he says to me last night, I was thinking about it and the reason you were let go of your last 2 jobs is because you are too nice. (and it is NOT like he is saying this in a complimentary way). Then he asks that I request that he can meet with the cabinet guy and his boss this afternoon and he will handel it.
I was livid but a bit torn.
Where the heck did that come from? It is my fault that the cabinets (see last blog) are wrong and that when I talk with these people I am nice? I was telling my DH that I told the guy that I understood that "yes, the design matched but..." I could tell this made my DH so mad. He said to me it is wrong. He talks to me like i am 5. One Word At A Time. I think this is totally uncalled for. It really makes me wonder sometimes.
Why be with me if he thinks so little of me? It remind me of how he was so supportive when I was studying for my PMP exam. Then I fail it and he comes back with how I did not put my all in and I was not pulling my weight as I was not going out to the acreage and working with him. He may be right. I do not know but I do not think I need my DH throwing this stuff in my face. I know he still thinks about that stupid exam. He asked me about it the other day. He is probably upset about the cost.
I just get sick of it sometimes. I get sick of realizing that what I say could very well come back and bite me. I really do not think that is the way it should be. Then I
and remember that we have a different relationship. We have a good yet different relationship.
I am ok alone in a way with my pets as my BFFs. Sounds sad but not really. My Aspen girl was the best in the entire world. No one better ever. Now I have Utah. It is not the same but I am strong. I can pull myself up, get back in shape and simply be happy.
R U with me? Of course you are. You are my friends. I know you are and that feels good. I appreciate your support. i really do even if it starts with stupid cabinet issues. It is crazy how adding a needle to a haystack can have such an impact.
Thanks again for listening. Sorry if this did not make sense. I needed to vent sense last night. Will hopefully get on the treadmill in the morning. That should help a bit.