Monday, November 25, 2013
As I have already written, I had a nightmare about friendship friday night. Saturday I called both friends - the woman who had been attacked by a neighbour as well as the woman I lodged wiith some years ago. Both conversations was really good and I felt energised and good about myself.
Today I have finally written a letter that I have thought about for a while now. It is anopther friend, not closed, who has been diagnosed with cancer with very small chances of surviving. Hi was the guy who summoned us to form an ukuleleband and during the years I have known him hew has also taken initiative to a little choir with us that lived at the same farm - there is about ten houses on that land and we had singers in all parts...although only one soprano and one bass... anyway, this very kind and humorous guy had been ill for quite a while, he has been diabetic (typ!) always and last year had a little stroke – and know it is cancer in lungs, spread to liver and ... no goo prognosis at all, doctors did not want to do chemotherapy because it is beyond that, but he and his wife wanted it anyway in hope to get some more time together.
I am not close enough to visit - and learned that they have asked not to get any as his immune system is vulnerable. And I have thought that I wanted to write a thank you note to him for all his kindness during the years, but it feels a little morbid "I know you are dying!" and I also feel a little shy, is it my place to do that.
And then I remember the woman who sent me flowers in the midst of my cancer misery, she was not close and had no obvious reason but it made me feel good, somebody cared. So I have written the letter and I hope that it will be recieved well.
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