Monday, November 25, 2013
Its Monday morning and all day I have felt down in the dumps and in a low mood, I have basically not felt like doing anything including the housework. I did have a phone call about a job but they must of decided to go with someone else because they said that they would ring me this afternoon if I got through to the next stage, but no phone call. I am finding it hard to find motivation to do anything, walk, exercise, study and other mundane daily activities. I don't know how to pull myself out of this slump I find myself in. I should be taking this time at home to concentrate on my studies, fit more exercise into my day as I am at home all the time, but I am lacking any kind of motivation to do anything. Sitting at home and eating crap is not going to help the situation it will just make everything worse. Maybe visiting this site each day and reading the many posts and inspirational stories will help a little bit. But I am so down that I am thinking that at the age of 52 who is going to employ me, am I just kidding myself going back to study and wanting something more in my life. My kids are all grown up, I have my son's wedding next year to look forward to. Why do I feel, when I am out of work, that I am useless and am not contributing to the household. I guess I will continue to write down my thoughts and feelings and maybe that will help a little bit and make everything fall into place. My stars are saying that there is something around the corner waiting for me to grab on to it, but until I find it, I will just have to be patient and take this time at home to contemplate and relax and may be de-stress, after all the job that I was doing was stressing me out BIG TIME as well, so maybe I am better off not working for the government and the universe has something in store for me where I can use my many skills, knowledge and experience. who knows, but only time will tell and until them I want to pick myself up and dust myself off and start all over again.