Sunday, November 24, 2013
I am always in pain in most of my body.
The last three days I noticed my back was acting up more than usual. Yesterday turned out to be a very busy day. Not good for my back. Hubbie wanted to get our grocery shopping done yesterday. I really didn't feel like it, but we were out of fresh fruits and veggies. There were other things we were out of as well. We usually do three different stores that happen to be on the same path of each other. By the time we had finished the second store my back was singing in pain. I had my husband to forgo the third store. We had so much stuff to carry in I tried to help my husband with it. Finally, he told me to stop and go put up what was already in the house. I got most of the canned and boxed goods put away. My husband helped with the rest. Then there was the veggie and fruit prep I do before putting them away. I repackage and label every thing. This makes for better storage and makes everything handy to grab. Plus I had bought collards and kale that needed prepped and cooked. By then I was in so much pain I sat down and tried pressing my back into the chair. I ask my husband to help out with the meat prep. I divide, cut portions, and butterfly roast for easier even cooking. I rewrapped the meat for storage.
After finishing everything I came in the livingroom and sat in my favor chair with the heating pad. I knew there wasn't going to be any exercise going on for me. By bedtime I had went into back spasms.
I couldn't move without extreme pain. It wouldn't stop. I tried to get up to get a muscle relaxer and I couldn't move. My husband got it for me and tried massaging my back. Nothing helped. Hours went by before I was able to sleep. This morning I had to struggle to get up. Hubbie had already gotten up. I really didn't want to ask him to help me get up. I struggle until I was able to sit up on the side of the bed. It took another five minutes to stand. I tried to dress myself and found I couldn't. I had to call my husband to help me dress. These are what I call my bad days with pain. I don't take pain medications, because they were harming my liver. I just have to ride through the pain until it gets better. It puts a halt to everything. So frustrating! I am just thankful I have my husband here with me in times like these. More frustration when I weighed myself yesterday. My weight went up 3.5 pounds. I almost fell off the scales. It is bad enough when my weight has been holding for two weeks and now a gain. I did have my husband to weigh me again this morning. I dropped back off 2.5 pounds since my weigh in yesterday. I guess if is fluid weight. I have had a lot of inflammation and swelling in my hands and legs. It is still frustrating. I want to lose down to 200 pounds by the end of December. It doesn't look like that is going to happen with all of the backsets. It looks like I may not be able to exercise today either. I will have time to rethink everything concerning my weight loss. It is time to reorganize and regroup! I have found it takes a lot of time and study to make sure I am where I need to be physically, mentally, and spiritually. I will keep pushing forward on my journey. One of my mantras I put on my Goal Board is "Never give up! Never give in! Never quit! Never, never, never !" I find my strength from the LORD. The LORD is my help!