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Day 1


Sunday, November 24, 2013

This is DAY 1 of the rest of my life!

I just wish I was gung ho to get moving. emoticon

I have signed up for my next two half marathons.

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The Calgary Half Marathon on June 1. It's the 50th Anniversary, so I'm looking forward to it. My son and I are going to run it together.

Not long after I signed up for this race, my hubby decided he wants to do his dream vacation next summer. In the process of doing some research for his holiday, I found this run:

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The Mayors Midnight Sun Half Marathon in Anchorage Alaska.

It's a race I've known about for years, and always wanted to do. Hubby's dream vacation is a cruise to Alaska, taking a train into the Klondike, and gold panning.

Well I found the perfect package. And with a little planning, it all works out.

We leave home at the end of May for the race in Calgary on June 1. Then we make our way to Vancouver for the cruise ship leaving on June 4. It's a two week cruise. Then we have 5 days in Anchorage before the race.

I'm excited for our journey. I'm excited for the next two races.

But I'm stuck on the couch. I've been sick for a long time - Shingles got me just after I ran a half marathon in Regina this past September. I am honestly still struggling with some of the after effects. The sores are 99% gone.

Okay I'll admit it. I'm still a little scared of another flare up. But I can't let that keep me down. It's been 2 1/2 months now. I wasn't able to run for much of that. It's time to get back on track. Unfortunately that means I'm starting over. Almost from square one.

I know it's only a small chunk out of my day. I'll feel so much better when it's done.

But I'm letting it overwhelm me.

When I trained for my last race, I put all of my energy into getting out the door and getting started. I struggled to finish my training runs, and would often just cave in and not run the whole thing. It took me a long time to find it in me to push myself to finish my run.

and in almost 3 months of training, I only lost 4lbs. It was so frustrating. I think that frustration made it that much harder to keep going.

When I started on Sparkpeople, it seemed easier. I struggled with nighttime binges, but relatively soon figured it out. I focused on drinking lots of water. Eating my freggies ( I also went gluten free right then so it really was a huge change). And I ran. Almost every day. My dog was taking me out running twice a day most days. I was dancing almost daily. I miss that where I'm living. I was using my polar hr monitor, and at my peak, I was focusing on burning 1,000 calories/day. My monitor did not take into account BMR, so this was calories burned through activity. I was eating 1400-1800 calories/day. I was calorie cycling - eating in my low ranges for 2-3 days, then one day in my higher range.

I'm scared. Scared I'll put the effort in, see no results, and give up. I'm tired of giving up on myself. I'm tired of getting that frustrated with the process.

I have a body media now. I also have a strong base line - I know what my BMR is, and how many calories I can burn just sitting on the couch. I also know how many calories I can easily burn.

I know it's not all or nothing. I know it's baby steps to win the race. However, how do I know if the baby step is too small?

Today my mind is sort of trapped in the "you can't do this. It won't work" thought proccess.

I know i need to change that. I need to believe in me. It's the only way I can do this. If no one else believes in me, that's on them. But if I don't believe in me, I won't get there.

I need to finish this. I'm famous for starting things, then not finishing. Or doing just enough to get by.

I'm not doing enough for myself. I'm letting my body slide again. I NEED to make it a priority again.



What can I do today?


Drink my water


Get my shoes on and get started on my training. It's a mountain to tackle to be ready for these two races in June. I can only get there one step at a time. Today is the day to take the next step towards that goal



It's time to begin my journey again. Wish me luck, and strength to keep to it when the going gets tough.
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MISSRUTH 11/24/2013 5:44PM

    emoticon for reaching toward that goal!

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VKKESU 11/24/2013 1:12PM

    Get out of your own head !!! Stop worrying about losing weight, or being able to finish. Just start. You are going to be going on an AWESOME vacation with a FUN activity in the middle of it that most wouldn't be able to manage !!!

Have a goal set up for each day and write them down and then just do it. Doesn't have to be big, just something to get you up and going so you remember how much you love to run and how it makes you feel............ worse case senerio , you get to Alaska and decided not to run . SO WHAT !! YOUR IN ALASKA !! .... And because you started walking or running for this, you will also be feeling better and be able to take hikes and walks and be full of energy.

You will be fine, starting is ALWAYS the hardest part and you can do this !!

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MT-MOONCHASER 11/24/2013 12:42PM

    "and in almost 3 months of training, I only lost 4lbs. It was so frustrating. I think that frustration made it that much harder to keep going." -- From other blogs I've read from people training for HM's, marathons, Tri's, other endurance events, etc., there seems to be a trade-off -- train for the event to do the best you can in it, or keep on track to lose weight. It seems that very few can do both. So that means that you have to decide for yourself which is more important right now - training for an event you've dreamed of for a long time, or losing weight. If I enjoyed running, I would opt for the events. As long as a person doesn't use training as an excuse to eat poorly, even though there is a minimal weight loss, there should be a much greater health benefit from the training. Better muscle tone, more endurance, inches lost, feel better all around -- what's not to like??

Another option would be to concentrate on the weight loss (still getting your cardio and ST) for a couple months and about the first of February start your HM training -- that should give you about four months to train up, which I think is more than you have been doing for your events (you know, wait - until it is crunch time).

"I know it's not all or nothing. I know it's baby steps to win the race. However, how do I know if the baby step is too small? " -- If you take a baby step, no matter how small, it is still bigger than no step at all... That is analogous to the saying about even the slowest runner is lapping everyone on the couch. Which could be said about walking, or even crawling...

In the words of some of Kristina's visual postings -- Just DO it!!

Have a good day out there, even if it is only walking the dog -- I see that you have just about 0*C, so she shouldn't be too unhappy about the temperature.

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TERI-RIFIC 11/24/2013 12:34PM

    Sounds like an awesome vacation and fitness experience. emoticon

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