Sunday, November 24, 2013
I had kind of a rough night sleeping. I woke up a few times, but did go back to sleep. I've laid in bed for a couple of hours this morning, just laying here watching tv, and thinking. I'm planning to go to the gym in a little while. It opens at 10, but I want to have some coffee first. It's my first day off in six days (I've worked 12 out of the past 13 days), so I don't want to rush through my morning. It's been really nice to just lay here in the quiet. My mood seems better this morning. I can tell my eyes are all puffy and swollen though, from all the crying I did last night. My head hurts a little bit, too. I will take some Motrin, have some coffee, and go to the gym.
First, I wanted to write a little bit about my calories for last week, and why I got so upset last night. Here is my calorie run-down:
Mon 11/18: 1110
Tues 11/19: 1433
Wed 11/20: 1493
Thurs 11/21: 1334
Fri 11/22: 1173
Sat 11/23: 1821
Weekly Average: 1394
So....that's that. I honestly don't even know what to say about it. I hope it's not a huge deal that I ate 1800 calories yesterday, but if it is...I can't do anything about it at this point. My sister-in-law said I'm doing great, writing down every single "BLT" (bite, lick, and taste). I even write down when I eat something as small as two peanuts. She said that since my average is just under 1400, and since I was low on my calories on Friday, that it really does balance out. I just don't know if it's my food addiction/denial telling me that it's ok, or if it is the logical part of my brain telling me it's ok. Is it really ok? Am I doing well? I think so. I really do. For the first time in a long time (...maybe ever...) I feel like I'm doing things the right way.
Well...I'm off to start this brand-new day.