My Numbers Journey
Saturday, November 23, 2013
I’m nervous going into the holiday season in the 230s. I joined Sparkpeople around my birthday in 2011 at my highest recorded weight of 254. I lost 20 pounds that year. In 2012, I lost another 13, but wasn’t able to maintain it, gaining back 15 over the holiday months. I’ve managed to stay in the 230s all year in 2013. It appears that my best days are in the spring. It makes sense. It’s a season of renewal; my whole outlook improves in the spring. It should be spring all the time!
On average, over the past three years, I completed 267 fitness minutes per week or 1172 per month. Not too shabby. I’m sure they were near nil prior to 2011. I’m extremely grateful that I have a body that still does what I tell it to.
I haven’t reflected on the numbers in quite awhile. I should track a few other measures to see how they correlate with the numbers, like my mood, or how well my husband and I are connecting. Now what? That’s the question I’m always asking myself. What do I do now? I bought the Spark to read on the airplane last week. Did it tell me anything I didn’t already know? Not really. Though, it did inspire me and reminded me that being positive (or negative) has a big impact on…everything. We are capable of a lot more than we allow ourselves to do and be. One of our team challenges earlier this year was to eliminate the self limiting thoughts. I need to remind myself that I create my own reality with the choices I make. And then I need to make that next step and start making different choices!!
As you know, weight loss goes far beyond the number on the scale. It digs into why you are unhappy with your current situation, whether it’s your job, finances, or relationships. Losing the weight enables you to peel back the layers and touch on the real issues. Honestly, I feel it’s why I haven’t made progress this year. I’ve been unwilling to look behind the curtain. I have some communication issues that keep me from being close to my husband. Why does this barrier exist when he’s the one person I wish to be closest to? If it’s a barrier of my own creation, why can I not own it and even ask the question with more assertion: Why have I created this barrier?
Another reason I haven’t made progress is conscious decisions not to. Sounds weird, right? But there are some comforting habits I have that I’m not ready to give up. I watch far too much TV and I eat dinner while watching TV. There. I admitted it. I’ve set goals to eat dinner at the table and to cut back on TV, but they’re half-hearted. I doubt I’ve even had a one day streak! I’ve read countless stories of people with the same habits. Once they change their lifestyle, there are too many fun alternatives to television. I’m not there yet. But you know what? Once I get over this bloody cold, I think I might start running again. I have my trusty pedometer/stop watch that I got a year or so ago. It was perfect for doing the Spark Rookie Running Program. I enjoyed getting a workout done in less than an hour. What I really liked was how my body responded. Even though we’re heading into winter, I think it’s time to think SPRING!!!
So, there you have it: losing weight is just the tip of an iceberg. Weight loss gets more focus because it’s physical and can’t be overlooked. But we owe it to ourselves to deal with the total package, so we can repair old relationships, nurture new relationships, and create lasting new ones.
I’m looking out the window to a frosty world this morning. It’s cold out there, but the sun is shining and the sky is blue. Will you take advantage of this new day and make different choices to forge that new reality you’ve been waiting for? I sure intend to!!