Friday, November 22, 2013
I know I have not blogged in a week and I want my spark friends to know that I have not given up sparkpeople or for that matter weight watchers.
My family and friends want me to totally give up weight watchers...as the last weigh in I had for november put me over my goal of 132 pounds...by two and I had to pay fourteen dollars, is this normal?.
This week (today) I stepped on the scale at home and lost two pounds. I was very diligent with what I ate as I made meals and frozen home made meals for this past week.
This past week and a half has been one of the roughest weeks I have ever dealt with. Like right now...here it is...nearly bed time.
I have an early work day tomorrow and my roommate is on an overnight camp out with his friends and so I am alone tonight.
And instantly I get a blue feeling as I want mom near me to sing me to sleep. I miss how she used to hold me when I was sick or scared and now...with both my parents gone...I no longer have that.
I feel hollow and empty inside...like a peice of me is gone.
How do I make the pain go away?.