Friday, November 22, 2013
Hi haven't blogged in awhile, things were stable in my life, I was doing ok, not well but ok.
Which means for me , eating fine working out and no weight gain.
Then my birthday came, good thing is it wasn't to long ago, so I didn't do too much damage.
But damage I did oyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!Almost 5 lbs of oyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
The only good thing I did was keep working out, good thing for that, but all the bad things I did.
Let me start on the day of, so it was a Sat. my hubby was home, and my younger daughter, every year DH gets me flowers, well I expected flowers during the day so I could enjoy them. Instead I was ignored all day, not on purpose, but life gets in the way.I WANTED ATTENTION!
Yes like a baby, except this baby turned 51 and it hit me hard.
Since I felt alone , I started thinking about how long I've been at the gym, how many years I have left to go, when I will actually be at a healthy weight etc.
Yes I even had time to go to the gym that day.
But being lonely took over. Don't get me wrong, at that night I went out for dinner got flowers and beautiful gifts, but my mind and thoughts got the best of me.
Regardless the effort that was made, I was disturbed about my age.
So what did I do, obviously I ate , anything and everything. Yes fruits too, because when you've eaten healthy forever, even when you try to eat badly your body wants natural foods.
I also almost quit sparkpeople thinking what's the point?
Then today at the gym as I was working out, I had a talk with myself!
I told myself to blog about it write it down, look at it, face it.
Yeah you've been down , oh by the way other stuff is going on with my kid but I want to keep this about me.
I asked myself what I wanted? To be fatter and unhealthier wasn't in the plans.
So I told myself well you're here working out, choose!
So I came back here, yeah I'm older, yeah it hit me hard, yeah I'm heavier, but I'm alive, and some people would love to be in my shoes.
So as often as I can I put my running shoes on and go to the gym, this week I will go back to my food plan, so that the 2 together can keep me going!
Thanks for listening I feel like I took a load off my chest!