When I stepped on the scale and saw 174.8, I became overwhelmed.
I honestly stepped off the scale, sat on the ground and felt tears fill my eyes. 100 pounds.
It seems so unreal to me that I started this journey this large and this unhappy a little less than 2 years ago.
When I joined SparkPeople, I was searching for people who knew what I was going through and I found a community of friends that have kept me accountable and given me the support I needed to succeed on this journey.
When I wanted to pig out, I thought about having to admit it to all my SparkFriends. When I wanted to skip a workout, I thought about all of my SparkFriends who weren't skipping their workouts. As much as you say I inspire you, you all have been my inspiration.
Here I am today.
But just so people know that I'm not perfect I wanted to show you what 100 pounds of excess fat does to your body, even at a young age, just in case you're only 10 pounds or 20 pounds overweight and need a reason not to let it go any farther. Here is the apron of extra skin I now have as a reminder of the old me.
I show you these so because I think honesty is the best policy. I'll probably wear Spanx the rest of my life. And I'm 24. And I'm just gonna have to be okay with that.
Whether you are doing this because you want to maintain your health, drop 10 pounds or drop 200, I don't think it is possible to do it alone. I couldn't have done it alone. I couldn't have done it without all of you. Every day that I logged on to more comments of support and encouragement was another day that I stayed on track.
Another thing I've learned is you've got to start now. Not next week, or next month. Today. This moment. This meal. If you have a bad lunch, make a good dinner. Don't allow yourself to continuously slip up you feel like your out of control. It is a hard hole to climb back out of. Not impossible, but very difficult.
Finally, you are worth it. You were meant to be happy and healthy and deserve to be able to enjoy life. You are capable of doing so and have the will power inside. It may take many attempts. I have been on many diets in my life, probably 8 or 9 since 6th grade. But I never dedicated my mind to any of them. Never did I ever really tell myself I was worth the effort to truly try and succeed until SparkPeople.
I did this. You can do this. I promise you that you can.