Thursday, November 21, 2013
I was visiting the SparkPeople page almost daily. I was eating right for the most part, but I wasn't losing or gaining weight. So, I went into a free range graze the past several weeks. I would record some of my meals, but not all of them. I didn't really have a goal in mind either.
This morning, I stepped on the scale, and I was over my "at least I'm not 180 lbs" weight. The scale said 184 lbs. Over those free for all weeks, I had gained 8 lbs. It made me a little sad, but it has also given me a new resolve.
I went into my weight goals page, and reset my weight. I was 209 when I started with SparkPeople but I haven't been 209 in years. So I cleared that out and put in today's weight. I put in today as the start date, because I am ready to start over. I thought of the old Weight Watcher's idea of losing 10%, but I decided to make it pounds. I want to be 175 lbs by 1/23/14. This is a pound a week. Now, I know my body isn't necessarily going to fall hard and fast on that number, but if I'm going in the right direction by 1/23/14, I will be happy.
Back in the day, my top weight was about 236 lbs, and I don't want to be back there. I looked older. I felt older. I couldn't move so well. I want to be back to my old goal weight of 150 lbs. Right now, I am somewhere in between.
My only problem is that I don't feel excited about it. I don't feel like, "Hey, I am really going to do this." I need to start measuring, exercising and taking the right steps to reach this goal. I just wish I had more enthusiasm for trying to get where I want to be. But I even have a plan for that. Fake it til you make it.