Thursday, November 21, 2013
Well, I've decided that I need to come back to spark again. Spark helped me so much my first two years of weight loss that I realized its a great tool to utilize to keep you accountable. Honestly, I got a little discouraged with it because as much as I tried reached out to people, and blog while receiving feedback, I just wasn't getting very much from it. But I suppose, I'm here to lose weight, and that is whats important to me. I hadn't gone away from Spark completely, but I really wasn't commenting on blogs or getting into the articles as much anymore.
Man, November is almost over and I swear it just started. My weekends are normally packed with hanging out with friends or seeing family and this month was no exception. The weekend of November 9th I had a baking weekend with my mom and Aunt. Bad idea. A lot of my favorite goodies were made and I'm still eating them way more than I should. I froze over half of them, but I'm still seeing a 4+ gain on the scale from having one or two treats a day. When I saw 188 on the scale yesterday, I knew I had to stop. Hopefully by Saturday my weight will be at 185 or less. I need to get back on track. I have my wedding in less than 10 months and I can't be any more than 185 for it! I've maintained this weight for over a year now... what's 10 more months?
So goals for the rest of the holiday season? EAT IN MODERATION. I did it well for the past two years, I just need to do it again. Limit the sweets. One or two a day is not limiting. That starts me in a downward spiral that I may not be able to come back from. At least I know it and I'm stopping it before it starts.
I have a few treats I have to make this weekend and next weekend for Thanksgiving and for a friend who just had a baby on Monday, but otherwise, I think my baking days are over for this year. Its just too hard to sneak a bite here or there. Those bites add up.
I'm DYING to see the 170's. I don't know if I'm just not eating and working out well enough to see them, or if my body is happy in the 180's. Heck... I am happy that I've been able to maintain here for this long, but its just a little discouraging when I saw a loss almost every week for over a year and now for a year I'm just STUCK. Up and down.... 180.2 is the lowest I ever saw. I don't know why I can do well for weeks at a time (when I was losing I did well for over a year!) but now, its a few days of being good and then two days of being bad. This weekend will be my real test. I normally splurge a bit more on weekends and that needs to stop, too. I know I can do it, since I have done it... I just need to DO IT!!!
Otherwise, not too much going on. Stressing about work since our company is being sold and I'm not sure if I'll have a job come the first of the year. Also, stressing about the wedding... our ceremony site fell through so this weekend we have to go hunting for a church to get married in. Neither my fiance or I are religious, but there is nothing else left in the small down we're getting married in, unfortunately. We could have it outside, but in September... its so iffy.
Back on track. That's the plan. Just have to stick to it.