Going Off Menu
Thursday, November 21, 2013
As expected, yesterday started out as a total stink fest. Just knowing I had to go into work (plus it's almost that week), I was just in a bad mood. Everything irritated me, and it took A LOT of tea and forced chatting to calm myself down a bit and just relax. I wish I knew that was so hard for me sometimes (haha I'm sure if I ever went to the doctor, I would be diagnosed social anxiety or mild autism or SOMETHING, but that costs money so no thanks to that).
Anywho, my day's meal plan seemed pretty solid, but I quickly went off menu. I was given a bag of little round jerky sticks at work, and I was hungry enough that I ate the whole thing. It was a small zip-loc bag, about 200g-ish, and I estimate the amount to be between 200-300 calories. Then a co-worker asked me to go out to lunch with her to have a chat about things that were bothering her, so I obliged and we ended up at my all-time favorite, Chipotle. That's usually a big calorie sink for me (I can rack up 1000 calories easy), but I'm super proud of myself today because I didn't ask for extra or double servings on anything. I added in a few extra calories in case the servers were generous with the portions, and came out at 785 calories.
Follow that up with a 120 cal skinny mocha and a waffle with 1/2 TBSP of almond butter and I ended the day at about 1560 calories. That's about 60 cal over the top of my range, but considering the derailments I think I recovered okay. Honestly it's below maintenance, and right now I would consider that a victory, especially because yesterday was below 1200 cal. I made my decision, I came out okay, so I see no reason to beat myself up over it.
The good news is I've already got a super healthy lunch in the fridge at work, so no need to prepare any food tomorrow! Haha so basically the meal plan I outlined in my previous blog is going to be for today.
Just knowing that I've taken the steps to stock my fridge with healthy things and prepare meals again has really improved my mindset and therefore my outlook. I feel a teensy bit more in control and like my old, motivated self, and that's good. Hopefully the trend will continue and won't be deterred by stresses at work.
Right now, I think I'll be lucky if I get through this work week without stress-eating or binging simply because things are so chaotic right now. With the approaching split, everything is a huge mess (not to mention they're tearing a wall down in our department and splitting the work servers, which is all kinds of fun). It's getting to where the only thing I can do on work days is work and sleep because it's so consuming. Well, I guess I have one day down and five more to go before my next day off. Definitely an uphill battle.
I think I'm ready for an hour of R&R before bed and another work day. Here's hoping I can continue on the successful track and start making progress. Hope everyone is having a great work week so far!