Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Well I made it to the parking lot outside the gym last night. I didn't park but I did slow down. I have to laugh at myself because I cannot believe how absolutely frightened I am to walk into this place! I'm just going to have to try again and again until I can get up the nerve and get it done. I'm such a baby! LOL More than likely at this point it will be in December now since I won't be back until then.
Last night I realized that I'll be in New York in a week. I am so not ready. I have so much to do this weekend! Packing is the least of it frankly. I have to clean out my fridge, cook and freeze what I can and throw out what I can't. I have to do laundry. I have to arrange for my cat to be transported on Monday to the people who are keeping her for me. (so nice) Cripes Anyway, I'll have plenty of time this weekend I'm just not usually this far behind on planning.
I'm hungry this morning. This would not be the least bit remarkable except for I rarely actually feel hungry. I asked a nutritionist about it and she said it could be that my metabolism is sluggish. She said if I am feeling hungry that could be a good sign. It is one of the reasons I can go a whole day without eating and not think twice about it. I get a little sick to my stomach or shaky sometimes which reminds me I have to eat something but no actual physical hunger pangs, or growling stomach or that "OMG I'm starving" feeling that so many people get. It is actually a good thing because I have a friend who is starving all the time and that would suck. I don't know but this morning I'm feeling just a little peckish so I'm encouraged.
My daughter is 27 her height is 5 7 and her weight 120 pounds. How did that happen? She's fit and gorgeous and her metabolism is unbelievable. She is hungry every two hours. She is also a vegetarian, a dancer and has recently taken up running but she does not exercise regularly other than her daily commutes which in New York where she lives is a lot of walking. The girl walks like a gazelle. I can't keep up with her with my short fat legs! Anyway, I'm headed there and she is going to want to walk places and I'm ready to give it a try but I'm a little scared of not being able to keep up. It annoys her. She tries not to let it show but I can tell and I don't blame her really. She's young and hasn't had to deal with any of the issues I have. With her lifetyle I'm hoping she never does have to deal with weight related issues.
I'm really excited to go see her. I just hope she doesn't do the weight lecture. I get why she does it, she is worried about me but it just makes me feel like crap. I'm hoping to stay true to the tracker while I'm there and maybe show her that I can do it so she'll back off. Maybe not. :)