Wednesday, November 20, 2013
So here I am WAY overweight and sick. No really, like sick for real. Every time I eat my belly hurts, I can't breahte and I am TIRED physically. I haven't really found the motivation to stop the vicious cycle, but my clothes being too tight and not having the funds is one thing...I have had no desire to workout and eating varies each day. Sometimes I do great, others it is all junk.
For a while I didn't know how I got here. I was in denial about what I was eating, how many calories I was past goal, etc. Then with the weight gain came more and more inactivity. It makes me sad, but for me saddness does not equal motivation or the wherewithall to get up and change.
Maybe with logging and reaching some small health goals like staying in calorie range and hashing out my feelings in this blog I can turn the tide. Maybe I can start to see a reversal of the abuse I have done to myself over the last year.