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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

So here I am WAY overweight and sick. No really, like sick for real. Every time I eat my belly hurts, I can't breahte and I am TIRED physically. I haven't really found the motivation to stop the vicious cycle, but my clothes being too tight and not having the funds is one thing...I have had no desire to workout and eating varies each day. Sometimes I do great, others it is all junk.

For a while I didn't know how I got here. I was in denial about what I was eating, how many calories I was past goal, etc. Then with the weight gain came more and more inactivity. It makes me sad, but for me saddness does not equal motivation or the wherewithall to get up and change.

Maybe with logging and reaching some small health goals like staying in calorie range and hashing out my feelings in this blog I can turn the tide. Maybe I can start to see a reversal of the abuse I have done to myself over the last year.
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    Well we all know exactly where you are coming from. So let's take one day at time to get to where you need to be...

    God bless,

    1577 days ago
    I agree with KELLIEBEAN about making some small changes right now. Even if you just get up during 3 TV commercials per night, instead of sitting, and do some small household chore or personal care. (Rinse a few dishes, fold some laundry, paint your toenails, etc.) You don't need to have a desire to work out, you just have to do it, like brushing your teeth. For me, I stopped making it a choice. Consider getting yourself an inexpensive kitchen timer. Set it and walk, if you are able, for 7 minutes or less if that's all you can manage. Then turn around and walk back. Stretch, make some arm circles, reach. Before you know it, that's 15 minutes! Do it twice this week, three times next week, four times the week after. Or do it every day and increase the time by a minute per week. Try chair exercises. Check out the Spark exercise videos, borrow a DVD from the library. Maybe, eventually, you will end up finding a form of exercise that you love. (I put off trying water exercise for years. I had a lot of reasons I thought I'd hate it. But it turned out that I was very wrong, I actually had fun. I was so wrong that I eventually became an instructor--who knew?) emoticon You can do it!

    1578 days ago
    You've made a start recognizing the issue. Now just take it slow.

    Make one or two small changes you can live with starting right now, for the rest of the week.. an extra glass of water, a five minute walk etc.

    Then see how you're doing next week, add on another small goal, for example, a little bit smaller portions of the foods you like. Nothing drastic, small goals and if you loose your way, just start over, no beating yourself up!

    Blogging definitely helps. I never thought I would do that but it does help me and you will find support!

    1578 days ago
    Recognizing the problem can help solve it, and you've done that. Forget the past, don't look too far ahead, concentrate on the NOW. Believe it or not, you can do it. In OA, we ask a Higher Power (God to me) for the willingness to carry on with whatever goals are best for us. Stick with it, you will succeed, stay positive!

    1578 days ago
    I am like that as well, but I REALLY look at myself in the mirror, even look at my actual pics....and put them right in front of me when I want to sometimes works... emoticon
    1578 days ago
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