Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Well my status had shown I had not been here for 47 days. In that time I managed to lose some more weight....a total of 18 pounds. But then....disaster. I could not stay focused and on track. As a result I have put all my weight back on. Not sticking with SparkPeople and the accountability and support it gives me, is one of the biggest mistakes I've made recently. Do you know why I ended up walking away like I did at first? The points. The silly points. While here I lost focus enough that I was wanting to make the points more important than the lifestyle changes. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone or not. But I had one month where I was number 1 on the leader board. As a result it became a game. A game. It isn't supposed to be a game. I am supposed to be here to improve my health.....that is not a game. That is serious.
So...this time. I'm ignoring the stupid points. The only numbers I am caring about is that my fitbit starts showing activity. That my calories are within range and that the scale or my measurements are going down. And I'm no fool. I know with the holidays upon us...this is going to be a very hard task.
I will trust in God and lean heavily on Phil 4:13 in the days ahead.