Tuesday, November 19, 2013
I forgot to mention this in my blog entry from last night, but...
I started up a weight loss support group. I was inspired by "Ruby," a show I've seen about a woman losing weight. I met with my sister-in-law. We've recently reconnected and I'm so happy she is back in my life. We decided to start meeting once a week, face-to-face, to discuss our struggles, offer support, etc. Tonight was our first meeting. She initially suggested we meet at McDonald's. I said, "Isn't that like Alcoholics Anonymous having their meeting in a bar?!" It was a good laugh, though. We were thinking about a coffee shop instead, and had planned to meet there. But I was still really NOT wanting to meet at a coffee shop. Tonight at the gym (I went to the gym again!) I thought of the library. I even reserved us a small conference room so we could just close the door, sit and talk, no foods or smells or anything to distract us or tempt us. It was perfect. After our meeting I reserved that same room for the next couple of weeks (as many weeks out as they had calendars for). We're planning to meet once per week, every week. I stressed the "every week" part because in the past we would chat online and then that would always fizzle out. I said we really need to stick to our group, and she agreed. We're already planning on asking more people to join. I think this will be great, and it's another "different" thing that I want to do this time. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, but expecting different results. I have to do things differently this time if I am going to succeed.
Speaking of which, I ate great again today and went to the gym again! I'm really proud of myself. I want to keep this up. I want to remember how good this feels so that can carry me through on days when I'm feeling tired, or weak, or wanting to give up.
...because I simply can't give up this time. I can't quit. I can't fail again. I have to beat this beast.