Tuesday, November 19, 2013
I didn't want to wake up this morning. But eventually I did. I thought about my week so far and it's been pretty awful as far as weeks for me go so I thought I'd actively try being positive today. That lasted about an hour because I was alone in the office today during open enrollment. Plus, I'm still in the middle of my project. I took a sedative. Around lunch I decided to start once again and get my nails done at my usual salon.
Now, I'm a nail biter so I require gel nails. It's expensive and not all that pleasant. My usual nail lady knows I only do it because I'm self conscious if I don't get them all pretty. Usually it takes 15 minutes. Today, however, I walk in and it's a new owner. It was complete amateur hour. He took 40 minutes of my hour lunch to royally **** over my nails. One of my fingers is bleeding. Why don't I reverse time and use the $20 to wipe my own ass. That would be a better use of the money. Now I have to get them fixed.
I'm not in a very positive place right now. My calves still hurt and I can't walk. Now I have these ugly nails to look at. My house is a freaking mess because I can't clean it without walking. All these things are triggering me. All I want to do right now is say '**** it" and get wasted right after work.
That's all I got.