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Life Without Running

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Last night I really broke down and had a good cry.

I think that since I'm on hold with the working out until I visit the doctor again on Friday, my body is adjusting to a lot less of those good endorphins coursing through my bloodstream. On top of that, I got my period yesterday so my hormones are all crazy.

Add to that our worries about money, and the fact that I am fairly certain we are going to have to put my sweet dog Lucy to sleep later this week, and variety of other bits and pieces yesterday and it was time for a good old-fashioned breakdown.

I think that our bodies really hold on stress and that holding on to the stress often means holding on to the weight, too. After my good cry last night, the scale finally moved down a pound this morning. Release!

Life without running is not as enjoyable but hopefully, it won't last that long. I do have access to a pool so if the doctor clears me to swim, I'm going to do that until I can get back to running again. I WILL RUN AGAIN!


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STEPH-KNEE 11/20/2013 5:52AM

    My heart goes out to you, especially in terms of your poor doggy! emoticon I hope you are able to run and feel 100% as soon as possible! I can only imagine how hard it is for you to not be able to do something you love! I will keep you in my thoughts! emoticon

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KMW987 11/19/2013 8:34PM

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MWWENSIN 11/19/2013 7:07PM

    Life can be cruel sometimes, but while you can't always control it you can surround yourself with supportive people who can help you through the tough times. I'm sorry about your dog, animals are our 4 legged friends, but sometimes it is better for them to put them down if necessary. Only you can determine that time. Exercise is important you might not be able to run yet, but you can usually figure out an exercise that you can do - perhaps your doctor can suggest some or check with them if an exercise you think is ok is ok. I'll be praying for you and your dog. Too bad life can't be all positive, but we can find ways to cope and people to help us out in our down times.

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STARTINGOVER37 11/19/2013 6:52PM

    There have been times that I have cried while running. Getting all of those pent up emotions out is a good thing. I realized about a year ago for me not to be an emotional wreck all the time I had to exercise at least 15 to 20 minutes every day. It is amazing what those endorphins do for you. I hope that you get cleared to swim, because that is great exercise too.

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KALISWALKER 11/19/2013 6:43PM

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I can sympathize with your feelings. With all you have going, losing Lucy would be terrible.

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    I'm so sorry you're going through so many difficulties.
It's good you had that cry, and great you released that pound!
You have some good plans for exercise. I hope you can run again soon!

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MBTEPP 11/19/2013 2:06PM

    When it rains, it sometimes pours.


I am so sorry about Lucy. Pets are part of the family, and we depend on them, as much as they depend on us. Be strong for her, and have a dear, sweet send off. I know it is hard to do, but sometimes it is for the best.

Swimming is great! My cardio of choice in the winter months.

Glad to hear you destressed last night. Tears are healing.

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JUST-ELIZ 11/19/2013 11:38AM

    emoticon Life is so hard. My puppy slipped on ice on the steps this morning and hurt her back leg so bad she can't walk on it. She's on the way to the vet right now- it just always feels like its something. :o(

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LPRUNWALK 11/19/2013 11:23AM

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So sorry you had a hard night, and that you are facing multiple stresses, including having to euthanize your dog. emoticon This is all so hard. I am wishing you the best, and am glad that you saw the scale move today. A ray of sunshine for you amid all the stormy weather.

Keep going, and let us know how you like the pool!


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KELLIEBEAN 11/19/2013 11:12AM

    I went through the same thing last night. I haven't had a good run since November 3 (and I shouldn't have even done that), DH is out of town, had a bad day at work, saw three people running on the way home from work and assorted other issues from the past that piled up and hit me.

At 10:15, I ate a half a bag (a big bag) of Tostitos then had two Special K fruit crisps (two in each pack) and a big glass of milk.

I read some blogs because I was too upset to sleep and then I did the ab work I promised I'd do and when I was done, I was laying on the floor crying it all out.

I'm really sorry about what is happening with your dog! I can't begin to imagine the heartache.

I understand the rest of it. I never thought I would know this lack of running feeling.

I'm trying to refocus my efforts. It's hard but I keep reminding myself it was hard to learn to run and it was hard learning to maintain a weight loss. I have to move on to different challenges.

We'll get there!

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GODDREAMDIVA1 11/19/2013 10:50AM

    emoticon crying is good for the SOUL!

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WOUBBIE 11/19/2013 10:50AM


I'm happy to see that you're working through the stressful times and not letting setbacks totally derail you. Life will never be a smooth straight road that you can run along at will. Sometimes you just need to take the detour through the rocks to get back to the road up ahead.

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SLIMMINGSHAY 11/19/2013 10:48AM

    So sorry to ear about your pet. I know how hard that is.

Hopefully the cry was helpful somewhat and you can find something you can do. Like someone else mentioned, perhaps yoga? Could be just what you need to help clear some stresses.


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PERUSER918 11/19/2013 10:27AM

    I know how hard it is to have to put something like this on hold. Give yoga a try and see if you can get some endorphins coursing again in the mean time.

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CAREN_BLUEJEANS 11/19/2013 10:27AM

    So sorry about your sweetie dog!

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