Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Despite all my health junk that is happening again right now I HAVE kept my sense of humor through it all!! The best part of my day is the laughter! I have talked to several of my friends this week so as weird as it sounds my health junk was worth it. Friends (I love you Girls!!) have reached out to me this week and each has made me forget about my pain, insomnia & fatigue for at least as long as I was on the phone with them. THAT IS AWESOME!!
They say Bob never gives you more than you can handle. Man, does He have faith in me being strong! While I do appreciate this faith I have had to wonder why He needs me to be SO strong. What am I going to be a pack mule in the afterlife? Sheesh!
Even with being SO tired I have actually had a pretty great week. I have weighed in at 141.6 two days in a row. If I weigh the same weight 2 days it usually sticks! YEA! I HAVE been exercising every day. I KNOW it helps. Yesterday I barely did half of my usual arm strength training because my muscles were tired, but I did do it. I remember laughing at my Dr years ago when she first recommended exercise for the fibromyalgia. HA! I said, 'I can't get out of bed some days & you want me to exercise?' I thought she was nuts! How in the world was exercise going to HELP fatigue???
I still have not 'dieted'! The 5 lbs. I've lost over the last month are all completely contributed to my return to everyday exercise! That makes me very happy & proud! Tone up, Chicky! Lean muscle helps your body burn calories more efficiently. I AM proof. Plus, you should see how great my arms look!
I was talking to Lenny a couple of days ago about seeing the Dr again for my 'depression'. He said it doesn't seem like I'm depressed. He said & I Quote, 'Lisa, you think too much!' Well, I'll be damned, I would never have thought of that!!! Smart Aleck!! He is right in that I'm not depressed tho. I'm tired!
Today when I see the Dr I am going to have her go through ALL my meds. I think the solution may be in getting rid of some....if not adding some. I take 6 meds a day & all of them have side effects that are the same as my symptoms!!! UGH! I take a depression med that causes stomach problems. A stomach medicine that causes fatigue. A fibromyalgia med that can cause depression....It's a horrible circle! I still don't see why they can't give me a 'happy thin pill'!
I had the best Nana moment on Sunday! When Samantha came to get Tiberius she leaned down to get him & he ran away. (this is the second time in a row he wasn't ready to go home even after spending over 24 hours at Nana's house!) For about a month now if you ask him for a kiss he leans his forehead in for you to kiss. Sunday after he teased Samantha by running away I asked if Nana could have a kiss. He ran over to me, tipped his head back & puckered his lips for me to kiss! AWWWW!!! SO Sweet! Best Tiberius & Nana moment so far! Samantha even gave an 'AWW'!
Despite our different parenting styles one thing I have always truly appreciated about Samantha is that she sees how important I am to her sons! AND acknowledges it MOST of the time. Even tho her feelings were a little hurt by him running away as a way to tease her she really did understand the awesome moment between ME & MY GRANDSON! That's a great Mom thing!
Yesterday, I was talking to my S-i-L & she said she had a very inspirational morning....at a funeral. GAWD! I burst out laughing. How do you get inspired at a funeral??? Sorry! That still makes me LOL! She said if I would stop laughing she would tell me. It took a lot of strength, (AGAIN with the strength!) but I did manage to get myself under control. Thank Bob she 'gets' me. I could have lost a really great friend with that reaction! I don't 'do' funerals.
She went on to tell me about this 88 year old lady who continued to do her good deeds up until the very end. Sunday school teacher to the end! I have to admit it was a pretty inspiring story about a lady who was always there for others.
I've been pretty hard on myself because I don't do much for other people, but the 88 year old lady made me realize I still have LOTS of time to make a difference in the world. My son & grandsons are great people too so even after I am gone they will continue to carry on my good works. I have Faith in that! I'm raising wonderful kids!