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Okay Kids, Having A Hard Time

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

I've really been struggling since last Friday. I'm having a hard time partly cause I'm missing one of my meds. It keeps me awake. I feel out of sorts and sleep a lot. Things are out of my control and I don't know how to handle it. I've been eating whatever cause I haven't been able to get out the store and these last few days I just can't eat one more salad.
Thanksgiving is becoming a project this year. Not cooking but where I'll end up. It's not really my choice i have to go where everyone or someone else goes or doesn't go. My youngest daughter was pushing me to go with her older sister to her fiance's parents house which is fine. They are lovely people and I know I'd have a good time though I want all of us together. The youngest didn't want to go because of food issues and where we'd be going the hostess is pushy and expects you to eat everything she makes. She's not mean or anything but watches. Might be culture. It doesn't bother me. So, now the older sister has gotten a seasonal job that has her working on Thanksgiving and now I have to stay here with my youngest and her hubby which again is fine but I get the impression that they wanted to be alone now I feel in the way in my own home. My heart is breaking right now. I know that non of them would want me to feel this way but it's how I feel. It'll be ok. I know I'll be where God wants me and that's what matters. Sometimes being single I feel alone in my family. But, I have God's family and all of you. Thank you. I'm ok.

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IGNITEME101 11/19/2013 8:26PM


They love you! Holidays are very stressful!

Take care of you~

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RELISA4HEALTH 11/19/2013 5:59PM

    emoticon Praying. emoticon May you have a peaceful Thanksgiving.

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LACEYKYLE 11/19/2013 1:46PM

    I'm sorry I gave the impression that I thought my daughters don't love me. I didn't think that at all. I just felt out of control without being able to drive. Maybe they do too. I'm dealing with a lot right now and I guess this is magnified. Thank you all for your support and suggestions. I feel better even now about this situation that it's morning. Please read the abuse thread. I'm going to blog about another situation there.
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SANDRALEET 11/19/2013 9:02AM

    God is with you my friend Might need a replacement for the medication you are not taking If can see a doctor for help

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HEISTHEANSWER 11/19/2013 8:35AM

    To have this feeling, whether true or not, would be hard to deal with. From all the things you shared before about your loving daughters always with you in the past, I just bet they still are right now to the last detail. Why don't you tell your daughter and her husband to go out on the town (movie, dinner) before Thanksgiving or even after in order to spend some quality time together. Ever couple needs that and it would be like giving them your blessings. Please, don't feel unloved for if your daughters thought that for a second they would be crushed. You are a wonderful, sweet lady that I have known for some time now. Meds can make one have all sorts of feelings. Again, try not to overstress about Foods right now. Maybe, give yourself a break (within reason) and say, I am getting back on tracking right after Thanksgiving. If you find yourself having Dinner with a pushy person, just tell them you are taking it home for later. Then you can eat as little or as much as you like.

Thank you for shaing, Dari. Hang in there!


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INNERJETTIC 11/19/2013 1:25AM

    I don't know what to say but I care. Come to my house for Thanksgiving! emoticon

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SEVERINA418 11/19/2013 12:28AM

    Awww, please don't be so hard on yourself, as I know your family would never think such thoughts of you! It's Thanksgiving, and it's about family and giving thanks for what we have. I'm sure they love you, and even if they were looking forward to time alone, I'm sure they will still welcome you being there with them. Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes we never learn what that reason is, but it's part of God's plan. ((HUGS))

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