Monday, November 18, 2013
It is no surprise to anyone who knows me that I LOVE cookies. Like, uncontrollably. I can never eat just one. One leads to a total sugar binge. I baked cookies yesterday. I guess I still felt the need for comfort. But today,I put them all in the freezer except for 2 for franks lunch. And I realized that just because things have been one way, I don't have to ALWAYS be that way. Why did it take me so long to realize that and fall into that head trap? Its dumb. I ate one cookie today. One.
I can change anything I want to. I'm the boss of me.
No more food victim. No more feeling out of control. If I eat something it will be because I choose to, not because I can' t help myself.
AND BY THE WAY...Thank you to all of you for your messages and support. I feel good and have processed everything. In fact today, I didnt want to do something and I told Frank I couldn't do it because my cancer hurt....we both started cracking up. I will be fine, no matter what the diagnosis. Thank you again. I haven't even told most of my friend in my "real" life yet so thank you for being here..