Sunday, November 17, 2013
Before I start this blog, can anyone tell me any shortcuts to get to "Add A Blog Entry". They moved it off the main page and now it takes like 4-6 clicks before I even get to start writing!
I have been giving the number on the scale alot of thought while reading Food: The Good Girl's Drug by Sunny Sea Gold. I really love this book as it gave me some food for thought while being able to relate to it. Anyhow, back to what I was saying, the number on the scale. My 100 pound mark is 160 and honestly, I don't know if I want to go back there. Yes, I looked good and maintained for three years. But, it was a struggle to keep it at 160. I was always losing and gaining the same five pounds. Honestly, I don't know if I want to go back to that place. I don't want to panic over a couple pounds. It's not realistic nor healthy.
When I was 160, I was kinda OCD on my calorie intake and calorie burned. There should be more to life than what I eat. My life should not be revolving around food. That is some Binge Eating Disorder characteristics right there. That should be scary right there but it's not. I have know for a few years now.
I know 185-ish is not where I want to be either. More than wanting to be smaller, I want to be healthy. I want exercise and eating healthy to be regular components of my life. I want to run half marathons. Well, I think. Still weighing in on that.
Anyhow, I am considering how I want to define healthy. That is really what all this comes down to and living up to THAT expectation. Not some society unrealistic expectation of needing to be a certain size. Off the top of my head, it includes more than just being physically fit. It includes emotionally, physically, spiritually, mentally... all of it. I definitely am holistic in my definition.
Being healthy means working out everyday, feeding my body good fruits and veggies, stress management by exercising and relaxing, accepting and loving my body even with any faults and meditating more.