Sunday, November 17, 2013
Today I was reminded of how important it is to celebrate our victories and achievements in life. Too often for me, I found myself apologizing for being very overweight and saying that I need to lose a lot more weight. Which I do.
But today I went to a farmer's market on a mild autumn day. I enjoyed the leaves cascading down around me as I walked about 40 minutes to one of the best farmer's markets in town and the only place where I can buy excellent organic produce. Especially being away for three weeks and struggling, I really appreciated this moment.
Then a woman asked me what I was going to do with all the kale. I explained I was going to juice it, and I inevitably was asked what juicer I used, where I got it. (I bought a Breville from Amazon for $99, and when it finally gave out, it was immediately replaced. I got a brand new juicer free of charge. Breville even paid for Fed Ex shipping both ways.)
As we talked about juicing, I told her I had lost 50 pounds and felt so much better. Total strangers standing in line to buy produce rejoiced with me over this weight loss and what it meant for my life. In that moment, I really felt the joy from them and within myself.
Too often, I have thought about the next goal,the next weight loss challenge, how I would do it. I have come such a long way and have really reduced the negative talk. But still I have learned to tell few people about my weight loss. The reason? A lot of people can't see the weight loss yet and some expect it took to look like more weight loss.
Today reminded me of how important it is to truly celebrate how far we've come in life. It isn't about just buying a new pair of smaller jeans or treating oneself to a small piece of chocolate. It is really about feeling joy in that moment, no matter what we weigh, no matter how far we ran or how intensely we worked out that day, and so on.
I felt joy when the golden leaves cascaded down over my head and vowed to take a very long walk today--which I will. But I also experienced shared joy when so many people were so happy for me that I had lost 50 pounds and felt so much better. I'm pretty sure I increased kale sales as well. Because organic kale is a huge mainstay for me.
Too often we are caught up in the future, the next goal, the next challenge. And there is merit in looking ahead. I love Diana Nyad's determination to reach the distant shore and see that as a metaphor for my own life. Especially because I think like a swimmer much of the time, even though I don't swim much in the city.
Today when I take my long walk, I will be celebrating my progress. That is 50 pounds of very heavy weight off my life. And I'm not going to be telling myself or others how I have a long way to go. Or I know that I am still very heavy. Or that it isn't enough. I'm just going to be in this moment, even on a very overcast and gray day. I'm pretty sure there are more golden leaves out there to cascade all around my head.