Sunday, November 17, 2013
I haven't blogged for a couple days. I'm in the lull between 2 half marathons 15 days apart. Yesterday was a rainy, grey-sky day and I wasn't my usual upbeat, cheerful self.
Health is a tremendous motivator to me and I was really disappointed that my blood pressure was up at the doctor this week. I should just double down and cut the salt even further, but I felt a little discouraged that I'm not doing enough. On the other hand, when I was told at age 59 that I had 90 days to bring down my blood pressure and cholesterol or I'd go on meds, I did it. At the time I said I was going to get to age 65 without going on lifestyle-caused medication. Well, I've got 7 months until I'll be 65 and my cholesterol is good. At home my BP was 128/74 before I went to the doctor, but there it was 160/79. I told her to take it again and it was 136/79. Doctor diagnosed hypertension. So that is some of my discouragement.
Vanity is another motivator. For years it was my major motivator, but I just couldn't lose and keep off the weight. Yet, I don't know if I could have done as well as I have these last couple years if I didn't feel like I look so much better. The pictures from the half marathon were a little shocking to me. I saw wrinkles and hanging skin I didn't see a year ago. I know I'm 64 and I'm not about to have surgery. Aging gracefully -- well, I'm not there yet. I'm still getting faster and fitter, but parts of me are beyond my control. But, then, hasn't it always been that way? Remember puberty? Don't know what I expect, but I need to deal with it, think it through, embrace my life.
So I'm in the lull between 2 half marathons. A week from today is my next one in St Pete - 50 miles away. Gotta get packed. Should be fun, but I won't have a car and will be dependent on others. Okay. Can't wait to see ONEKIDSMOM. I will always be grateful to her for running my first half marathon with me, and this will be the anniversary of that event.
I've spent several years almost in a state of euphoria that I finally, finally, finally achieved a great weight and fitness. Right now I'm coming to terms with the reality of the work it takes to stay here and the health and vanity issues of aging.