Sunday, November 17, 2013
Week one came and went as well as 1.6 pounds. I am thrilled to see a change in my mood. I was battling the stomach bug, I won! Had a setback from going off meds. and going on new ones. My body felt like it was shutting down for two days but I managed to fight it and happy to say yesterday was a better day. Better than what I have seen the past 4 months. Since July I have had stroke like symptoms. Three hospital visits and numerous tests and meds. They have no clue. Correction calling it Complicated Migraine. Except I feel there was something else. Found a Dr. who wanted to help. Can not seem to keep Vit D in my body and hello I am the new owner of an Auto Immune Disease- hypothyroidism and blood disease called Factor VI. Heart disease is in the family and with my stroke symptoms more meds. Anyway long story short. I researched and researched and decided I am not okay with all these meds in my body. I am now on meds for the thyroid and an aspirin. two pills a day not 7. Low and behold I am three days symptom free from the stroke symptoms. I know this road is a long one ahead of me. Many years of giving up and many years of medical issues. I feel I am in control now and hope that I can gain my control with my eating habits. So far so good. I love cheese so being vegan is out but Vegetarian I am. I will just limit the dairy. Watched Forks over knives and it opened my mind to a lot. It is overwhelming today for me. Many obstacles came in the way this week. But here I am not giving up. In the past I would say screw it and eat my way to depression. Not today. It feels like a cloudy day but I see a ray of light shinning through. I know in time as the months go by more and more light will shine. If I didn't have obstacles, I guess I wouldn't have anything to try to better myself. Learn from my mistakes, and boy there are so many of those floating around. But each day I just have to tell myself I will knock down each one of them with a new ray of light. Woke up crying today but now I feel I am going to be okay!