Saturday, November 16, 2013
Current Weight: 138 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 39 lbs
Man, I am not very excited or happy right now. I feel like the meeting with the counselor today took my excitement of being in the 130s for the first time since 2009 completely away. It was not my usual counselor since I changed weigh in days to Saturdays. I am now officially in transition but it's making me completely depressed. Transition is 6 more weeks of the program but you add more foods. I thought that gave me more room to actually, oh I don't know, eat FOOD.
For this week until next Saturday the program "generously" gives me an extra cup of low carb vegetables to eat per day. The rest is the same. The lunch is still my cream of broccoli soup so all I'm doing differently for the next 7 days is adding real broccoli to my soup.
Oh boy, stop the excitement.
I don't get to eat any grains for 5 more weeks.
I guess in my mind I was hoping to incorporate more natural foods into my diet within a week or two. Not 5. I've been eating their food for 19 weeks now. I ATE ENOUGH THANKS.
Well, I don't care. I'm celebrating tonight. After listening to the counselor telling me that eating mashed potatoes on Thanksgiving will make me fat and I should just stop eating them in general got me thinking. Maybe I don't want my life to revolve entirely on my weight. Perhaps I want to not worry about my damn weight on a holiday. Maybe after running the proverbial marathon I don't want to start another one right off. Maybe I want to eat mashed potatoes on Thanksgiving because I haven't eaten any in 5 months.
The point is this. Tonight I will celebrate because I have worked very hard. Not sure what I'm eating but I will be drinking champagne! Tomorrow I will get back on this crapfest until Thanksgiving and I will eat mashed potatoes.
If I turn my life into "I can't eat this ever" or "If I eat 1 cup of potatoes I will be fat" then I've already failed. What is the point of life if I am constantly denying myself everything? I'm gonna go work out because apparently I'm getting fatter just by thinking of bread.