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Just Thinking

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Did you ever have one of those days, or in this case nights, where the thoughts would just start flowing in your head? Some of the thoughts come out of nowhere and I wonder where in the world and why in the world did that just pop into my head. If I wasn't so blessed, I could have a real pity party right now.

The past week has been a little difficult. I'm anticipating shoulder surgery on Monday. I'm in pain with that. I'm not sleeping well. I'm doing well as far as eating and tracking, but my exercise has fallen way off and I'm not happy about that. My whole arm throbs and aches terribly when I do any kind of exertional activity, but I try to stay as active as possible. However, I am blessed with good health, good friends, a great husband and family and for that I have no right feeling sorry for myself. I look forward to the surgery with the hope that I will recover quickly (I'm a fighter) and by this time next year, find that I'm fully mobile again and exercising in every capacity that I enjoy.

I am also going to be closing my massage therapy business. With the economy, such as it is, it has been difficult to sell the business to someone else, so my only other option is to close the business, affecting the lives of four other therapists. That saddens me, but I will not be able to effectively operate my business from a long distance and that is one of the biggest factors in my decision. It just adds to my sleeplessness. However, my "girls" are telling me I'm doing the right thing and that they will be ok. Two of them are ready to cut back in their business anyway and this will only help to push them to take steps they have been reluctant to take themselves. The other two are confident they will find other places to practice and I am most certain they will also. Their letters of recommendation are ready to go whenever they need them.

Lost a dear friend this past week. Visitation and funeral this weekend. This young man was a blessing to everyone who know him. He was a giver. He never took. He gave to others on a continuous basis. He served his family and his community. He was a firefighter and a man of faith, with a heart as big as Texas. He loved his wife and his kids and will be missed by many. He was only 38. We've been blessed to have known him for over 15 years, watching his family grow and watching him succeed in many goals he set for himself.

When do you stop worrying about your kids? I have a 41 yr old son that I worry about every day. I pray more than worry, but I still worry. Lots of turmoil in his life right now. And he doesn't live close by, so that adds to my frustration just a bit. He's always been very independent, so communication is sometimes weak, to say the least.

Only granddaughter is graduating this year. How does the time go by so quickly when some days seem like they are never going to end?

I guess that's it for just thinking or this is what you get for me just thinking, I can find a rainbow at the end of every sentence written here though. I am now and always will be a positive person. I am a woman of faith and I know that God will be with me wherever I go, whenever I need Him.

Praise God and have a wonderful Saturday!

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  • LARABY34
    That is a lot all at once isn't it? I feel bad because I was coming here because I wanted something from you. You probably get that a lot in your life because you are a giver.

    I didn't realize you had pain, but think it is hard but good that you are going to take care of it. Was the surgery Monday like already gone or coming up? Either way heck yeh you are a fighter! You will own this like everything else you have lived up to. It will be hard but I don't foresee any real challenges here.

    Your business is another story. To call it a business isn't quite fair. This is your passion, your life's work, no? This never ends my friend. This is what you have given to the world and it will not end. You have mentored and it is always there for you to practice in when you have the strength. I like to think I know you but I know your people do and if they are cheering you on, you have to trust that they are right. It's a journey and this is your path. Everything is going to be more than ok. You are just having a horrible time because you can't force your way through just have to relax your way through it. Easy for me to say, but that is great because you have everything and everyone you need to just sit back and say
    Life is great and I am a wonderful person that is loved
    Wow I worked so hard and it is time for me to let other people feel the happiness of doing
    I'm ok just letting myself live, I don't have to constantly achieve
    Thanks Nandee for everything and take the time you need
    With Much Love and Respect. Karen
    1582 days ago
    I hope your shoulder begins a speedy recovery on Monday! Oh, those thoughts in the night, when the brain just doesn't want to turn off and rest! We've all been in that position. You are blessed in your faith and in that God is working it ALL out for your good.

    1589 days ago
    What a thoughtful blog about people in your life, you care a lot. Positive thoughts about your surgery and for a very successful recovery
    1589 days ago
    Prayers being sent your way. Best wishes for a speedy recovery. I'm sorry about your business. But I have found when one door closes a brighter one opens. We will always worry about our children. No matter how old they are :-) I'm sorry to hear about losing a dear friend.
    Yes, time does pass quickly even when we perceive a particular day as being long. When January rolls around, this time of year right now will feel so far away and yet, right now we feel as though the time went by rather fast. Funny how we all do this every year. Lol

    1589 days ago
    Sounds like a tough week...
    I hope your shoulder surgery goes well and you will be up and running again very soon.

    My kids were very difficult adolescents and I felt so hopeless I stopped worrying at all at that time.
    Now they are older and wiser (me too) and we get on well : )
    1589 days ago
  • SISSY_24
    May God Bless You and your Family! emoticon
    1589 days ago
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