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i got some upsetting news (very personal, feel free to skip)

Friday, November 15, 2013

OK this is what's going on. You may recall my bitching about menopause for the last year or so. Well, I had a period after a year and mentioned it to my Dr. They were concerned and so, I had ultrasound on tuesday and today I had my biopsy. So when my dr. came in room, I asked what Ultrasound said and she looked it up. She said "jesus christ" under her breathe while she was looking at it so I took that as things were not looking too good. She is a new dr. just met her last week but I like her and she seems honest and straight up. She said my uterine lining was at a 10 (should be a 4) and she was hopingty to see a polyp because those can just be removed.She did not see any but that is not always visible in ultrasounds.

She said not to worry, lets just do biopsy and we will go forward from there.

So she started the procedure and poked and prodded but then told me she couldn't do it because my cervix was too closed up (it is old and menopausal!) and that we would have to do the biopsy under anesthesia so I have to have surgery. She said that she would do biopsy, and then a D&C which takes some of the lining out of my uterus all at the same time. (warning #2)
 Then she said we would go from there depending on what we found. I pushed her and asked what best and worst case scenario is. (You know me!)

Best case: find the polyp (or more than 1) and remove them during the first surgery. Do biopsy and no cancer cells are present. Do D&C and that will be the end of it. 

Worst case: Do biopsy, find cancer, schedule another surgery of complete hysterectomy (uterus, tubes, ovaries), then, depending on the stage of cancer, vaginal radiation (which sounds completely horrible to me, although I know nothing about it!)

So yea, I am shook up but I like to know what I am dealing with. She is booked all through December (she does surgery on weds. because all the surgeons in town share the 4 operating rooms). She said she was going to see if she could schedule it on her day off (day off! wow.) which is Monday, maybe in the evening, or perhaps on a Saturday so I could get in faster. (which was warning number 3 for me) that she wants me in so quickly.

I told her I will do it whenever she can do it. I should hear from her probably the beginning of the week since she has to get authorization from my insurance which shouldn't be hard. They are pretty good about that. 

So I will let you know. I don't think the first surgery will be bad. It is in and out, probably sore for a day or two.

That is what I know right now. And yes, I called Frank at work, told him and I cried. But I am ok now. I think.

I just needed to write it out and express it. Yes I went to lunch and talked to my sister then ate apple pie for dinner..some habits die hard! I needed comfort today. So I turned to food. As usual. Then, we walked Stitchy and are gonna watch a movie. A comedy.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
REMEMBER2BME 12/15/2013 7:02AM

    I am so sorry I am so late in reading this but am reading it now. I am with you 100%. I like know.... no I need to know the facts. It is the only thing that gives me some control. I research when I am ready and work with doctors (after finding the best if need be) and make educated decisions. Then remind myself that I am making the right decisions and I am in good hands. You hang in there. Let yourself break when you need to (if the key for me in times like these). Then return to your strong self. You CAN have it both ways. HUGS! Both ways meaning having a release (crying or just hugging Stitches for a while) and being so VERY STRONG. My Aspen girl was there for me during the most challenging parts of my life. She was my rock.

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PJH2028 11/24/2013 1:23PM

    I'm with you Jan.
Hopeing for best of the options for you.
Menopause aint for sissies.
Boy don't i know!!

Miss you.

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_BABE_ 11/19/2013 1:14AM

    My prayers and thought are with you.

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COLUMBINE2 11/19/2013 12:09AM

    I hope they're just polyps...I had several removed. Thoughts & prayers & tons of affection coming your way. You're a strong'll come through just fine. Sounds like a dynamite dr.! Yay!!! Hang tough! emoticon

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HDHAWK 11/18/2013 9:45PM

    First of all, I've had a D & C and it isn't bad. I would be just like you, wanting to know everything that is going on. I sending you hugs and prayers. Keep us posted on how you're doing. emoticon

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CANNIE50 11/18/2013 9:36PM

    It sounds like you are in good hands, and I KNOW you are virtually and actually surrounded by LOVE!

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TREASURINGLIFE 11/18/2013 8:04AM

    ((((HUGS)))) and prayers coming your way, Jan!!!

- Michelle

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IGIVEALL2YAH 11/17/2013 8:46AM

    I'm Praying for you, faith in the best outcome..He is with you! emoticon

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FANGFACEKITTY 11/17/2013 6:09AM

    emoticon I'm keeping you in my thoughts and hoping you get answers soon and the problem fixed.

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JANETRIS 11/16/2013 7:58PM

    I'm praying for you, your family and your doctor that the right care be found quickly!..... emoticon

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MAIA2011 11/16/2013 4:56PM

  I am so sporadic but I saw this. You are in my thoughts!


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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 11/16/2013 1:48PM

    Jan, I'm so sorry. By reading your new status, it sounds like things seem a bit better today. It also sounds like you have a great doc. WHO comes in on their day off?!? You seem to be in good hands. Love you girl, and I'm thinking about you!

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AAAACK 11/16/2013 12:33PM

    I will send my best vibes into the universe that your biopsy comes back clean, and that you have nothing but that first surgery to deal with. That best case scenario CAN happen! It really can.


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MELLYBEANS0919 11/16/2013 11:32AM

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DAISY443 11/16/2013 10:48AM

    The waiting to find out is probably the hardest part. Once you know what to expect you WILL be able to deal with it, I know you well! Meanwhile, have another piece of pie, worry a little, love those around you and draw strength from them (including Stitchy!). My thoughts and best wishes are with you!

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SARAWALKS 11/16/2013 5:56AM

    Praying for the best case scenario here...
emoticon and hang tight...

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SLIMMERJESSE 11/16/2013 12:13AM

    I wonder if she's talking about fibroids. Many women have them and most are not cancerous. Just to give you another experience. Try not to worry. I know it's hard.

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PAMNANGEL 11/16/2013 12:10AM

    Good luck! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 11/16/2013 12:05AM

    Jan I am so sorry you are having to go through this and the worrying part especially. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU RIGHT NOW and I will continue to do so. Hang in there sweet friend, God loves you so very much and he will get you through all of this.

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MT-MOONCHASER 11/15/2013 11:34PM

    I hope that your procedure(s) go smoothly and the outcomes are good.

My thoughts are with you at this time.

Keep us posted, okay?


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TADTURC 11/15/2013 10:07PM

    My thoughts will be with you for speedy recovery from any outcome that may come your way. Stay positive, no matter what. I do ultrasound for a living and understand your fear as I also have family members battling cancer as well.

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CATS_MEOW_0911 11/15/2013 9:59PM

    Oh Jan, I'm sorry to hear this. You're in my thoughts!

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/15/2013 9:57PM

    emoticon I'm sorry you're having to deal with this- but grateful you have a good and honest Dr. to work with you. Will pray all goes well. Dealing with medical issues myself and my friend keeps saying she hopes for 'moderate' news-which means it won't be horrible but enough so I don't feel crazy! I'll hope for a little better than that for you.

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STEPH-KNEE 11/15/2013 9:49PM

    I am so sorry to hear the news, and of course the waiting and wondering what it could be. I am so glad your doctor is making you a priority because your health is a huge priority. Sounds like a great lady. You will be in my thoughts and I hope everything goes as smoothly as possible! emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 11/15/2013 9:47PM

    Sending you huge (((HUGS))) It is so hard to be patient. Sending good thoughts your way.

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