Friday, November 15, 2013
So yesterday marked the end of 7 weeks of Maintenance and the beginning of week 8.
This week has a lot of milestones in it: rounding out 2 months of Maintenance, of staying +/-5 pounds of 155 and most importantly marking 1 year to the day of making the choice to get healthy and lose weight.
Before I embarked on this journey, I feared these months. From September to about February, I just knew I was going to gain 10 - 20 pounds (who knows how much I gained, since I rarely weighed myself). Food, food, food was everywhere, endless, in huge quantities. And whenever I saw it, I ate it.
But this year, I don't really have that same dread, that same fear. Of course, I am still working through my natural fear of gaining (years of being overweight/obese do that to you), but I don't fear October - January the same way I did.
My reaction to the candy-coated holiday of Halloween was my first big encouragement, the realization that food didn't have the same sway over me that it did. Yes, I ate Halloween candy. Yes, I went to parties and enjoyed myself. But I didn't buy bags of candy in September only to eat them all three days later. I didn't beat myself up constantly because I ate a fun sized Kit Kat.
Bu most of the time, I didn't even WANT the candy. I walked down the candy aisles and never was tempted to pull off some of those bags and put them in my cart. When I did eat the fun-sized bars, I was shocked at how bleh they tasted. The chocolate didn't have any flavor other than sweet; everything just tasted sweet and crunchy.
The second big thing I did was this: moderation. I had a Halloween party and ate a bit more than I normally did. But the next day, I followed my plan. I ate normally - healthy foods, fun foods, but all in moderation and always paying attention to how full I felt.
And then amidst all the food, I continued to be active. I ran. I went to Zumba. I went to Spin Class.
So with Christmas and Thanksgiving around the corner, I am not afraid. I'm not afraid because:
1. I pay attention to what my body is telling me. I'm listening to my stomach telling me it's hungry or full and what it REALLY wants to eat.
2. I am staying active. Some days I want to go home and just lounge around, but I try to resist that impulse.
3. When I do want to eat something "naughty", I make it a GOOD naughty. A nice piece of chocolate (not that cheap stuff either!). An apple with a tablespoon of Nutella (Nutella is good for you, no? LOL). Some sort of homemade goodie. I avoid the bakery section at the grocery store, I avoid Cold Stone Creamery and Krispy Kreme, and the candy aisle is NOT on my list of places to visit when I go grocery shopping (unless the mixed nuts are down there - I will go and pick up some almonds in that case).
4. I remind myself that making ONE bad choice doesn't mean throwing in the towel. So I ate more for lunch - noted, move on. Don't use it as an excuse to binge the day away. So I had something unhealthy for breakfast - make a healthy choice for a snack or make sure to spin or run. Whatever I do, I know that yes, I am not perfect, but I don't have to toss myself down the staircase just because I fumbled on one step.
And this is what is carrying me through each day. I pay attention. I don't eat on autopilot; I am in control of what goes into my body and what I do with my body. I am not letting food have control of it anymore - and when I am in control instead of food, I don't have to worry about the dreaded holidays and the massive weight gain.