Friday, November 15, 2013
I always read and repeat to anyone who will listen, "Everything in moderation." Because elimination leads to deprivation which leads to bingeing. So if I only have a LITTLE of something, I won't feel deprived and want to binge on it. And I don't want to feel like I'm too strict with my dietary requirements and I want to be able to enjoy myself when I'm at a party, blah blah blah.
So I got to thinking...where is the line between moderation and deprivation? If it were up to me, Iíd be eating donuts every day. I feel deprived if I donít eat donuts. Or brownies. Or coffee cake. ESPECIALLY coffee cake. I canít help but feel like Iím missing out on something, especially when other people are eating those things and Iím not. So technically, I feel deprived. Of cr@p food. A LOT.
And then I got to thinking, how can ďmoderationĒ be quantified? Donuts, brownies, and coffee cake are all delicious. But how can I eat EACH of those in moderation. If I have a donut on Monday, a brownie on Tuesday and coffee cake on WednesdayÖIím pretty sure THAT will have negative consequences. So really, I need to pick one of those things and eat THAT in moderation. But then Iím deprived of the other things.
Deprivation is inevitable for me because of the relationship I have with food. Moderation for me means eating things very infrequently Ė once a month or less. No, ďIíll just have an ounce of chocolate every dayĒ for me. I have to deprive myself because for me, MODERATION leads to bingeing. I have no middle ground Ė itís an issue I have in multiple areas of my life. Itís easier to cut things out than to eat them here and there. I schedule cheat days when I can eat whatever I want and not feel guilty and then go back to my regular routine the next day. Like Thanksgiving - my thought process is that if I eat well up to that day, pigging out that day, which Iím going to do anyway, wonít be as big a deal. And then the next day, Iím back on track. That way I have a goal and something to look forward to.
So...I rescind my advice that moderation is for everyone. Not eating coffee cake for me is like pushing through a really hard workout. It's tough, but in the end, the rewards are sweet (pun intended).