Friday, November 15, 2013
Through a series of unfortunate miscommunications and misunderstandings earlier this week, some conflict arose in my life. Now conflict is not necessarily a bad thing, but this could have been so easily avoided. As it is, it has left me with some open wounds and a great big case of the blues. I've been surprised at how many bad memories and feelings have come bubbling to the surface in the aftermath. It's just been one of those weeks when every moment, I'm on the verge of tears. Perhaps I've just held things in too long - yes, I have a tendency to do that, and now it's all coming to the surface. Add to that a bit of SAD with the shortened days and it equals one big funk.
I'm trying to be gentle with myself. This started with the realization that I was not the bad guy in this week's conflict and did not deserve to shoulder the blame. My feelings are valid. I am a person of worth. I let myself get beat down, but I am standing up stronger than before. And I'm not joining in and beating myself down too. So much of the tension melted during my run on Tuesday and that same run clarified my thoughts. I can't wait to get out again today and Sunday for my runs. Running has always been my therapy! I'm discovering that it is OK to be sad, but it isn't OK to let it rule your life. Who I was yesterday is not who I am today or who I will be tomorrow. Life will go on and it is good!!