Friday, November 15, 2013
Thought I'd do a quick blog to release some disappointment & frustration I'm feeling. I've gained FOUR pounds so far this week ! Can you believe that , & that's with exercise & eating right during the day ! Imagine if I didn't !!!!!!!!!!
It frustrates me how EASILY I can gain weight, but what a struggle it is for me to lose. I'm sure most of you have felt this way at some point.
I am back to eating processed snacks(chips) every night. I can't keep them out of my house because of my son, but he only eats them twice a week or so with a sandwich. I have to go back to the store & buy more for him for lunch because I have pounded all his down.
I worked so hard to learn about myself & eating habits & overcome my binges & I'm regressing. I just broke the 190's in the past month & fit into 14's again & I can feel that slipping away because of MY actions & it saddens me, but right now I'm feeling hopeless, not that I'm giving up mind you. I'm not . That's why I'm blogging, but I keep saying I'll do better today, then the evening comes.Sometimes i've made it until 30min. of bedtime & the carb monster attacks & before I know it I've left a trail of bags & wrappers of processed junk !
I've been VERY tired this week after work.I feel like I need a break.Down time. Struggling just to get through the day, get dinner wash some clothes, get DS bathed & things ready for work/school the next day. Most days I'm dragging through it. The processed food I'm sure isn't helping that situation.
Anyway, just wanted to get that off my chest, reach out for some support before I slip into a fat abyss . I'm off to exercise now.
I hope my friends are having the opposite experience this week ! Happy Sparking !