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Sleeplessness

Friday, November 15, 2013

It's 4:30 am and I've been up for the last three hours. My plate has been so full lately that my mind doesn't want to shut down. I'm getting sensitive to little things that people say, and that's just not like me. Someone commented about my weight - not a flattering remark and one that's really got me paranoid. I don't even want to step on the scale for fear that this person is right. As hard as I've tried throughout the years, my body image has never been right. People whose weight has been up and down all their lives get like that. It doesn't make it any easier for me. With the holidays coming, I am making a conscious effort to get more activities in and change my eating around a little. I can't go back to the beginning again.
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  • BUNNYCATS
    I hope you get some good sleep soon. Have someone take a picture of you. I thought I looked much heavier than I was. It was reassuring to me. I don't listen to people's opinions any more about my weight. It's either I'm too heavy, or I'm too thin.
    1044 days ago
  • SLIMLILA
    I think you have just had too much good news and exciting things happening this week, now tell your brain to slow down you need to rest... don't we both wish it was that easy, yet another thing we have in common..

    Well, from your comment on my blog, I would never ever have guessed how much you loved your kitty babies!!!! Yeah right!!! As I sit here sharing my apple with Buddy!!!!

    Yes, I do know about cats, my oldest dd has 3 of them and my youngest had one the last I heard but one summer when we flew to her place, she had 7 kitties and their momma. And my niece told me yesterday that she knows someone with kitties who need a home.. But, having just spent a small fortune on our couch a few months ago, it's too scarey right now.. Though, that couch is so uncomfortable, I can barely sit on it and then with pillows and or afghans... and also, the lazy boy part of it is broken already, and we've only had it since April.... wonder if there is some kind of replacement warranty on it or anything. I wish,..

    Hope you slept well and are enjoying your blessed Sunday.. we sang old songs at our church today, Blessed Assurance being one of them....
    God Bless.


    1044 days ago
  • PURPLEPEONY
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  • CYBERCITYSHELL
    I hope you have managed to get some sleep over the weekend Patty. People's comments can be very annoying sometimes that is for sure.
    That is one persons comment, and I don't know about this person. But some people like to make someone else feel bad and it makes themselves for better. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1045 days ago
  • CATTUTT
    Aw I'm sorry to hear you were having a rough time sleeping last night. That's so miserable. And poop on someone making negative comments to you. Try not to let it get to you, although I know that's hard.

    I hope you get some good sleep tonight!

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    1046 days ago
  • GRNDMOM43
    emoticon Sleep will help you put things back into prospective. emoticon
    1046 days ago
  • BARCLE
    emoticon I hope you get some good sleep soon emoticon
    1046 days ago
  • JANTHEBLONDE
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  • AWESOMECHELZ
    I don't know who this person is whether family, friend, neighbor, co-worker but would you say what they said to you to someone you love? If not, don't accept it from them and tell them so. I have done that and it is liberating. emoticon
    LOVE, CHELSEA
    1047 days ago
  • ERINLINDSAY83
    Sorry for your lack of sleep! I can relate.... if i don't take something everynight to help me sleep, i'm up for hours! (Do you take/have you tried melatonin?)

    It would be so easy for me to say to you "Don't let what they say bother you. they were probably just having a bad day and they took it out on you. " But really. I would have been bothered as well. I think anyone who suffers with weight or self image issues would be bothered.

    Just try to remember how many supporters you have between family, friends, and SP. and try your best not to let the naysayers get to you. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out.

    Have a blessed weekend!
    1047 days ago
  • FITMARY
    Nothing worse than insomnia! Comments from others may be thoughtless and careless so it's much better to give them as little weight as possible. You've been making slow and steady progress and you're even a team leader so you don't need any stray comments to tell you what you already know. You are doing what you can with the cards you were dealt and that's all that is asked of us. Stay strong!!!!
    1047 days ago
  • GOLFINSUNSHINE
    I'm starting again too - only think about the food choices in front of you at the moment. Whomever made that comment must be dealing with their own insecurities. Who cares what anyone else thinks - just change what you think. Your very special and are looking at what you can do to be healthier - thats what counts. Hugsss g/f - I am an insomniac too - 5:08 am here and I still haven't been able to sleep.
    1047 days ago
  • SLACHETKA103145
    Patty, Remember that today is the first day of your life!!! I too have been up since 1;30 but I have grown "used" to it...Also I am programed by how I lived my life...Sometimes I want to think that I am changing but in reality it isn't change as much as "routine". I too have been crabby lately and a family member asked me point blank if I was going to "mellow" out like my Mom did.... emoticon ... wow and just because I am starting to show some weight loss everybody has decided I think too much about what I eat...the bottom line is we have to do what is comfortable and feels right to and for us!

    You know if I have received one gift in life it is what Native Americans/American Indians taught me about age...I really wish I could pass this on to all of us..it is not about the personal or the me it is accepting the responsibility that age has given me! I have to be honest this is what guides me right now and it is what gives me strength and courage..neither have anything to do with how I look or will eventually look because I have taken out the me and think what I have to give!

    I really did not mean for this to get this long but I really really want to reach across the miles to you! You encourage so many of us as a team leader! We willingly accept that this is you...so remember how much we need you..I hope that you know I do!!

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    1047 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/15/2013 5:03:47 AM
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