Friday, November 15, 2013
Thanks to those of you who have wondered about my silence I have been on Spark daily but merely checking in and doing some "chores", no blogs.
Iīve been to Oslo (on work) and overate but considered it normal and did not worry - but two days after I went into the first binge sinse june and I sthink I might have been able to avoid it had I not already been weakened by the eating in Oslo. The cause For bingein was clearly that I visited my dogcarer at the mental award - the atmosphere of depression and despair really made me feel too much, I could not handle it.
I also started a renovation project in my home - painting and wallpapering hall and kitchen and putting a new floor in - I donīt know if the word "click-floor" is the same in en english, it costed me about 5000 swedish crowns which is a lot and it makes me nervous because I doubt my own ability to get it done and I would really hate to live with half job done....and I have never handled a click-floor before so it is a little bit daring.
But then mentioning this on the theatre, our creative leader Ari offered to help and she is very clever with tools so it will be fine. But she is coming sunday and until then I will have to have finished the ceitlings and walls - a problem is of course to move out the furniture of the kitchen - cupboard and fridge especially.
Painting is hard as it is profiled panel but the hall is almost finished and I am starting on kitchen... two layers in ceiling and three layers on the panels - I think I will not have time for wallpapering and that is a problem as I donīt want to have it hanging over me...
Food is slipping and sliding - I hav lost 15 kilos alltogether, that is huge, and I am doing a lot of exercise this month but since my binge it has been hard to be focused. I am doubting myself a lot.
I hope to post "before" and "after" pictures when I am done... for the moment I will treat you with doggy bringing the paper:
It is taken seconds before he shredded it to pieces...