Thursday, November 14, 2013
14. True or false: I like the way I look. Elaborate.
I do and I donít like the way I look. Some of the artifacts of ageing donít agree with meóthe wrinkly skin, the baggy eyes, spots and blotches that, once arrived, are here to stay. Some times and from some angles, I hardly recognize the old lady in the mirror. But I think the way my hair is graying is pretty cool (changing from a summer to a winter ptarmigan). Over all, Iím not extremely freaked out by the changes the years have wrought, but thatís largely because Iíve never set a lot of store by my appearance, wanting to be memorable for other, less tangible qualities.
I do like the improvement from my weight loss so far. I canít help being very pleased with myself when people notice the recent difference and compliment me on it. And I frequently wonder what Iíll look like 15, 30, or 40 pounds from here.
I regret (a little) that I didnít appreciate my appearance when I was a young woman. As most of us do, I was obsessed with my perceived flaws, but looking at pictures of my younger self now I think, ĒHey, I was pretty cute back then. Wish I would have realized it at the time!Ē