Thursday, November 14, 2013
On January 7th of this year, I took a pic of myself standing on the scale, at the lowest weight I had been in probably 10 years at least.
As most of you know, if you have ready my blogs, on Jan 8th, the very next day, I was on the walking track, about 45 minutes into my daily walk, when I suffered a broken foot.
5 to 6 months of high doses of vitamin d and alot of depression and I just lost sight of what I needed to be doing, finding another way to exercise, I lost confidence in myself and I lost motivation and determination. and today, I found out I am 15 pounds heavier than I was then.
So, as blogged about before, Today I had a dreaded doctors appointment.
It was pretty much as I suspected, the scale was pretty right on with my own.
So, here it is in a nutshell.
I have gained 15 pounds since Jan. 7th.
So, pretty much a pound a month, a little more.
I know it could be worse, but it shouldnt be this bad at all.
If nothing else, I should at least be down 15 pounds, if for the whole year!!!
So, I have been pretty disgusted with myself today, but I am too tired to beat myself up too much.
After the doc, I went to Lowes, then Walmart, then Food City, then Dollar store, then gas station, then drug store, then Subway, then post office, then came home and unloaded the car, packed it all inside, put it away.
And I am beat!!!!
How many weeks left in 2013??
I am not even going to set any kind of goal as far as pounds go.
I am however, going to set a goal, to walk as much as I possibly can.
Work out here at home, get myself and my home organized.
And just do the best I can to stay positive, count calories, spark my food, fitness and stay with my groups, take advice from all of you.
And go into 2014 with a whole new positive outlook and hopefully start losing weight again.
I am going to re-do some of what I spark/track and I am going to change my calories, etc.
And that is all I know to do.
I am trying to get things organized around here for an upcoming, and very much dreaded move.
And for the upcoming holidays, I had planned to make and give out homemade candy, but I am not going to do that.
I dont eat it, and I dont want to put it off on others who might be struggling.
As discussed with my doctor today, I know that alot of what is going on with me is depression, perhaps hormonal, but what ever it is, its just one more excuse to allow myself to slide and slip and hide and lie and cover up and fall.
And I might be down, but I am not out!!!!