Thursday, November 14, 2013
My high school reunion is in nine months. I have always fantasized about how I would be so sexy and thinner and beautiful by this time and that I could come back and show the bullies how wrong they were. I have always wanted to come back thinner and show all the guys who teased me about wait or wouldn't go out with me because of my size... and show them "look at me now".
I feel like this is a really strong motivator for me. I need to feel succesfull and in a weird way how I look and how I am perceived from these people I was never really friends with is the gauge I use to determine if I succeeded. I realize this may be unhealthy on so many levels. But I need to show people I have changed.
I realize people read these, but I treat this as my journal. I put my thoughts here and I don't censor them. Please be respectful of any comments thanks all!!!! :)
This is where I will wear my little black dress debut!!!