Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I admit it, I recently had a not so brilliant idea, but I went with it anyway. Can you say d-u-m-b?!
So I am super stressed at work right now, writing performance reviews for more than 30 of my direct reports and that on top of my "regular" work as a manager has me over the top overwhelmed. So i figured I would give myself a break from committing my food this week and just go with whatever I felt like having.
This is a VERY bad plan for a food addict and binge eater. I have no idea how much damage I have done in the last four days but let's just say it hasn't been pretty and I feel like crap physically. Needless to say when given permission to eat whatever I want, fruits and veggies don't cross my lips. Fries and desserts are my main stays and I drink diet coke like it is going out of style!
So after four days of this I have had enough! When I got home tonight at 11 pm I made a food plan for tomorrow and actually prepared the food as well, and now I am going to commit it on my food tracker and then I am off to bed.
I guess it could have been worse, it could have taken me days or weeks to decide to stop the insanity or I could have purged, as I used to do.
Surprisingly despite my bad eating behavior I have been going to the gym all week, so all is not lost but I do feel like I have failed myself in a very major way this week and I intend to get right back on track tomorrow. Say a prayer for me, will you please!