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So that was a dumb idea!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

I admit it, I recently had a not so brilliant idea, but I went with it anyway. Can you say d-u-m-b?!

So I am super stressed at work right now, writing performance reviews for more than 30 of my direct reports and that on top of my "regular" work as a manager has me over the top overwhelmed. So i figured I would give myself a break from committing my food this week and just go with whatever I felt like having.

This is a VERY bad plan for a food addict and binge eater. I have no idea how much damage I have done in the last four days but let's just say it hasn't been pretty and I feel like crap physically. Needless to say when given permission to eat whatever I want, fruits and veggies don't cross my lips. Fries and desserts are my main stays and I drink diet coke like it is going out of style!

So after four days of this I have had enough! When I got home tonight at 11 pm I made a food plan for tomorrow and actually prepared the food as well, and now I am going to commit it on my food tracker and then I am off to bed.

I guess it could have been worse, it could have taken me days or weeks to decide to stop the insanity or I could have purged, as I used to do.

Surprisingly despite my bad eating behavior I have been going to the gym all week, so all is not lost but I do feel like I have failed myself in a very major way this week and I intend to get right back on track tomorrow. Say a prayer for me, will you please!
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  • HOLLYM48
    one day at a time! Just remember that a couple of days does not undo all the good that you have done. Just hop back on the spark wagon, which you did right away, because as we all know this is not a diet, it is a lifestyle and obviously you are committed to the right one! Good job on recognizing what you were doing and making yourself get back on track food wise and you went to the gym during this time so you are right, all was not lost!
    Best of luck to you on achieving your goals, I know that you can do it!!
    1411 days ago
    Getting back on track is one of the best things about this journey! You learn from your mistakes and can do anything! GO YOU!

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    1411 days ago
    This is all a part of learning to eat right. Even our mistakes are helpful because they teach us that we really don't like living that way! You have a balanced view of the subject and insight into your situation. Like you said, it was triggered by a situation. That's a lot different than someone who has truly made bad eating habits their whole lifestyle. I think that all of us have a problem with eating the wrong things and losing our tracking when we are under stress or sick. Fortunately, those situations are temporary and we get back to normal, our real selves. I've read that being a manager is a challenging position, but by the same token, you have that job because you're a good manager.

    Looking forward to your upcoming statuses and blogs! And like you said, all is not lost, you intend to get back on track tomorrow. I know you will be fine. (And I've recovered from the blueberry pie I had this week during my situation.) Sorry I talk so much but your blog said volumes that I could relate to.

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    1412 days ago
    emoticon that you are getting yourself back on track.
    1412 days ago
    At least you did see that you need to eat healthier for your body!!
    1412 days ago
  • ALICIA214

    Fall down seven times get up eight and you keep going..

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    1412 days ago
    Yes melm! Prayer sent right on up to heaven. I also pray for God to give you tremendous focus and that everything lines up like dominoes . . . easy peasy.
    1412 days ago
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