Becoming more aware
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
So I have been tracking my calories for the past few months or so. I wouldn't say I'm consistent and track everyday however I thought I was doing ok as far as making sure to write down what I eat. I usually wouldn't track on the weekends and if I nibbled on something when I got home from work I wouldn't track it.
I haven't had much success in losing any weight. I lost a few pounds but then I had a terrible emotional week and ate so much food, including a whole tub of chip dip which I'm ashamed of. I can't seem to stop when I start, even if I am full, it makes me feel better so I continue to eat, and of course it's never healthy food. I don't think I would be as worried if I ate a who head of broccoli but that just isn't the case. So I've come to realize I am most certainly an emotional eater.
During my little week of emotional eating I neglected to track my food for fear of seeing the number of calories I was consuming. Well when I finished that whole tub of chip dip I was so ashamed I had to see how many calories were in the whole tub and what I just ate. 630 calories, yup that's right, in one sitting (mind you this doesn't include the amount of chips I ate also). I couldn't believe this! I felt great at the time eating the food, if comforted me, made me happy, my taste buds were jumping for joy, my stomach was telling me it was getting full but I didn't care, I only cared about how satisfyingly fulfilled the food made me feel.
I think this was my breaking point and made me realize I need to be all in or I won't make any progress. I need to address some deeper issue when it comes to emotional eating.
Does anyone else deal with this and if so how do you handle it or keep it under control?