Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I have been doing fair this week. I haven't tracked my food and I am still at 50 pounds lost and not budging on the scale. I just don't think I am ever going to get under 210 pounds it seems. I am hanging in there but I want to reach my goals and there all screwed up cuz I quit losing. I am also doing my 5 pounds by November 30th and have lost 1 but that put me at 211. I keep gaining 3 then losing 3 etc. never going under 210.
So then I have to redo my goals all over again. I saw one ladies weight loss journey of 100 pounds lost and she lost 1 to 2 pounds steadily every week never faltering. I can feel skinny-I can smell it and touch it and want it so bad. I am down 2 sizes but I am not satisfied with that. I have a wedding in December and I wanted to be at least 200 by then and its not working. I am drinking my water and exercising 3 times a week. Maybe I will up my exercising to 4 or 5 times per week maybe that will help. I have only lost 1 inch in October so I am not losing that way either.I could eat everything in site right now. but I won't.I haven't exercised yet today but I will. I keep putting everything off I don't know what's wrong with me. I just wish this journey was over its been a year and 2 months now and I am still at 50 pounds. It just seems to be going so slowly.Sorry I keep rambling on but I feel a little down today on myself. I need to perk up and get moving or I think I might go crazy-not really.I feel very motivated but nothings happening.I feel like I am at a standstill forever I am destined to be fat forever.well guess I will close for now and figure out what to eat for supper than go see my mom at the nursing home.Best wishes to all my sparkfriends I love you dearly.Be Blessed, Lu Ann