Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I wasn't going to do this SparkCoach exercise, because I didn't really know what to say. But then I saw that I haven't blogged in almost exactly one year...so I'm biting the bullet and getting it done.
When I thought of my "perfect weight" in the past I imagined myself they way I was before I had my first child 23 years ago. I thought THAT was the only weight I'd be "happy" at. I believed that until I reached that weight I was "less than" my real, valuable self. I didn't really think about my life, what I'd be DOING at that weight...just the number on the scale and the size of my pants. The magical "HAPPY" would just come once I reached those perfect numbers.
Well, I sat and really thought about it this morning. What AM I working towards? What do I hope to achieve, and what will I DO once I've achieved it? Funny thing is, I didn't see that skinny little 20 year old me this time. I didn't even see ME. What I saw was the world around me. My kids, happy and grown. My future grandkids. My husband and I on some awesome adventure together. The view from my motorcycle as I finally had the time and energy to take some amazing long distance rides. Then I realized, there IS no magic number that I need to reach. Yes, there's a range for optimal health. Yes, there will be smaller pants involved. :) But the real thing I'm working for is that LIFE. My body will know where in that range I need to be, once I get there. I don't need to compare myself to, or compete with anyone else, not even my 20 year old self, anymore. My "happy weight" will be the weight that allows me to live this life that I love so much to the fullest extent possible, for the longest time possible. Cool.