I'm 35 and I'm still working on growing up. I'm very close to being done with this current project.
My Mom is retiring, tomorrow is her last day at work. This is
and its also necessary, she is losing her vision. Its not enough to give up a driver's license, but it is enough to not work as a graphic artist.
I realize now that I have a tendency to drag my feet any time I perceive something as being 'hard' or 'work'. I am doing meditations
to release that old tendency. I know that it stems from my old coping technique that did help when I was going through the abuse as a small
child, but I also understand that is an old habit whose time has come and gone. Its time to shift my focus, shift my energy, and be fully present now.
I am struggling with my
weight. However, I am making some progress. I have been doing meditations about that too. My eating
habits are improving. My exercise is slowly coming back. I have been getting up every other day to go for a walk
breakfast. I had forgotten just how good
that makes me feel.
My virus is improving very slowly. Occasionally I get
fevers. Sometimes I get swollen glands. Some days I just feel really
tired. Yesterday I had a sore spot in my throat so I sucked on some vitamin C and this morning its much better. Even now I feel like just going back to
sleep. We have had good
weather for the last 6 weeks but I haven't really enjoyed it much. Then today there was smoke out there again. I hope that the fire gets put out soon. I will be doing indoor activities instead of hiking
outside. Leslie Sansone is my friend these days. I like that she is upbeat and doesn't put people down for not being 'ripped'.