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Bad feelings

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

It's been a rough week. The good news is I can get pregnant, the bad news is I lost it already. I was so terrified of losing it but tried to stay hopeful. Gone on the 5th week. I don't know why I told my mom and made her so excited. She told me my fear of losing it was for nothing, everything would be fine. My last one was 10 yrs ago and I was a mess for a week. This one was last night and uhhhh I am just at the start I am sure. I am gonna try to put my energy into positive things and not food. Hoping this was a trial run of being fertile and it just wasn't the right time yet. It's just been such an awful year with my dad passing and my aunt was given 2-8 weeks to live 3 weeks ago. Why would I think anything good could happen. Sorry to unload, I just needed to write it out.

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PSFITMOMMY413 12/10/2013 10:41AM

    Have completely been away from Spark but I just wanted to say that I read this and am thinking about and praying for you. You are awesome and in time will be such an amazing mom... And I can't wait to send you surprises when that happens :)

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EDDYMEESE 12/1/2013 3:44PM

    Julie - you know I no words will suffice...just big hugs to you. emoticon

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WISHICOULDFLY 11/16/2013 10:13AM

    I am so sorry you have suffered this loss on top of having a devastating year. emoticon Hang in there and vent away here if you need to!

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JPONCIN 11/14/2013 9:34PM

  Awww Julie, I'm so sorry. If you need to get out and talk, I'm around. (((HUG)))

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MWWENSIN 11/14/2013 5:06PM

    Glad you're able to keep a positive attitude during some really challenging times. You'll get through this time like other challenging times in your life. Keep positive and supportive people around you and lean on them when you have too.

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NANCYPAT1 11/13/2013 10:03PM

    I am so sorry to hear that you had this loss, but as you say, staying positive and upbeat and avoiding using the food to substitute for dealing with the emotions will surely help you to conceive again. I had two healthy sons and 3 difficult miscarriages in between them. Healthy eating and working on your fitness will help make conception more likely. Keep that in mind. (HUGS)

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KATRINAKAT23 11/13/2013 9:54PM

  Sorry for your loss. emoticon emoticon

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ELFITZPA 11/13/2013 8:29PM

    I'm so sorry to hear. Sending hugs and positive vibes.

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FRANCESCANAZ 11/13/2013 5:01PM

    Really sorry to hear this. emoticon

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PHEBESS 11/13/2013 4:22PM

    Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear this! I can only imagine your emotions - Big hugs to you!!!!!

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FIT4MEIN2013 11/13/2013 2:10PM

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IFDEEVARUNS2 11/13/2013 2:02PM

    I'm sorry. How reassuring to know you can get pregnant - focus on that. your day will come.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/13/2013 1:57PM

    Oh no, Julie! I'm so sorry.

I lost a fetus too when I was in my early 30s. I ended up pregnant shortly after and had my son.

I hope you will take this time to pamper yourself. I know it may sound weird but at a sad time like this you need to focus on yourself and your loss. Do what makes you feel good, other than eating. Play with your pets, take long baths, read a book, whatever relaxes you and helps you cope. emoticon

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JEREMY723 11/13/2013 12:21PM

    I'm so sorry for you and your hubby. At least you know it can happen, so hopefully it will happen again soon for you guys.

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LEIGHWOMAN 11/13/2013 12:13PM

    So sorry. Jules :( Hang in there!

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TWINKIEQUEEN 11/13/2013 11:35AM

    wow! your life has been tough what you can to stay positive and we all send you hugs to help you deal with the rest

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RODGRODMEDFLOD 11/13/2013 11:25AM

    Hang in there and vent away, it is cathartic.


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ERINLINDSAY83 11/13/2013 10:49AM

    I can't even imagine. (I myself can't have kids, so I know about the general pain of the topic, but I cannot imagine what you are going through.) Reassuring to know you CAN get pregnant though. I will definitely pray for you. (And no worries on venting...we al need to do it...)

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