Wednesday, November 13, 2013
It's been a rough week. The good news is I can get pregnant, the bad news is I lost it already. I was so terrified of losing it but tried to stay hopeful. Gone on the 5th week. I don't know why I told my mom and made her so excited. She told me my fear of losing it was for nothing, everything would be fine. My last one was 10 yrs ago and I was a mess for a week. This one was last night and uhhhh I am just at the start I am sure. I am gonna try to put my energy into positive things and not food. Hoping this was a trial run of being fertile and it just wasn't the right time yet. It's just been such an awful year with my dad passing and my aunt was given 2-8 weeks to live 3 weeks ago. Why would I think anything good could happen. Sorry to unload, I just needed to write it out.